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I have the oddest feeling my computer is about to crap out. If it can just hold on for about, oh, 6 months after I start my residency then I can buy the good stuff.

August is almost over. I will have to thank the FM dept for *nicely* trying to convince me to not do pathology. I can't wait to do my clinical path month, I still need 1 more letter of rec. The gym has been going well, although I'm still too chicken to do spin class just yet. Thought I need to work on some cardio/strength training for a while before jumping into spin. Don't want to make a total fool of myself in front of the entire class by going into cardiac arrest.

Can we hit the "easy" button and just have match day magically appear?

August is almost over. Yay! I'm one more month closer to being done, being out of the house, and being on my second path month! Clinic has been very challenging for me, especially since I don't like clinic. There was one couple this past week that literally talked for about 20 straight minutes. After that I was so drained I just wanted to go home, shut myself into my room, and not talk to anyone. One more week, I can do it!

Speaking of clinic, seems like I've either caught some stomach bug or eaten an egg full of Salmonella. Which is why I'm unfortunately missing High Energy's reception :( I was really looking forward to it, but I feel like poo and my stomach cannot be trusted. I'm sure she and her new hubby will have a wonderful time! I'm totally pumped for her. That also means I didn't go to free clinic and now I HAVE to go next weekend to make my FM requirement.

So, did anyone realize it's going to be September in about another week? Yikes! I still have to get 2 more letters. Kinda freaking. GOT to get those done next week. Will probably miss another morning of clinic. Blah.

Hope everyone's rotations are going well.

And I run

I run so far awaaaaay.

I'm doing better after my little rant. I think people just get too wound up with stereotypes and their own personal opinions and don't see the forest for the trees. I'm sorry for anyone who was in the wake of my rage. No worries, I'm still doing pathology no doubts.

Anywhoo, clinic has been entertaining this week. My favorite was the Dilaudid druggie who ran (literally RAN) out of clinic when security was called. We just wanted him to leave, but I suppose he thought he was going to be arrested. his story as to why he's had multiple doctors write him Rx's and had them filled at multiple pharmacies was that his identical twin brother stole his identity. Priceless. I have a deep, seething hate for drug addicts. At the same time I have a pity for them as well. Mainly, we'll get you help, but I don't appreciate your crap. Give it up. I also have the power of a very confrontational personality on my side.

I'm looking forward to next month. I'll be back in the path dept. i'm not looking forward to sending my application (it's almost Sept ALREADY?!) and asking for the last few rec letters. My meeting with the dept chair went well, and he enthusiastically agreed to write me a letter. I really do love the path chair. He's an amazing teacher and so supportive. I wanted to give him a hug, but I feel that it would have made the whole meeting awkward. I'll be getting my second path letter sometime next week, and I need to find someone to get me a letter from another dept. My medicine attending hasn't answered back, but I may get one from the family medicine people. I've got 26 places on my list right now. I think I exhausted all the places where I'd be ok living for the next 4 years.

Enough of talking about things that make me want to drink.

Joined a local gym (again) today because 1. the school gym stinks and 2. school gym parking stinks worse. I didn't like the fact I had to wait until 5 pm every day in order to park by the gym. Or anywhere near the gym. I'm pretty disgruntled by the parking situation at UMC anyway. Although, I'm excited about Spin class. I've always wanted to try it, and they have one at 530 pm on weekdays. I'm definitely going to try to go tomorrow. Hopefully I'll survive! haha. I gotta get more serious about my whole new year's resolution to run a 5k this year. Maybe the Blues 5k in December?

Catch you on the flip side.

Pity Party

I'm just going to take a minute and whine about my life. Why is it that the ONE year I'm applying for residency everyone and their mother wants to freaking do path? I mean, NO ONE did it last year. Now there's a guaranteed FOUR people doing it. WHY ME? And I'm getting pretty fed up with people telling me that I'm too not socially retarded to do path. I should do medicine. Ugh. Fine. I'll tell patients how I really feel, sit and look at you with a "you're an idiot" face and then fail to respond appropriately to any questions. Will that make everyone ELSE feel better about me doing path? ugh. And don't get me started on my residency application. My CV is as fluffed as it's going to be. No, I didn't win who's who for medical school, or get some fancy award. I'm a vanilla (literally) average run of the mill student. I'm sure the same 5 people are getting all the awards, just like it was in high school and undergrad. And I'm sorry I didn't make a 270 on Step 1. And  score still isn't good enough and puts me below average for pathology. Meaning I should apply for 30 or so programs, to make sure I can rank no less than 8 (preferably 11) programs. Which, if EVERYONE didn't decide to do path, I wouldn't be in this situation anyway.

F my life.

Can you tell my dean's meeting wasn't what I expected?

In other news, I'm still chugging along with my Family Medicine clinic rotation. It's my last week at one clinic, then i'll be switching and going to the other. I'm also in the business of trying to get rec letters. I have a meeting with the dept chair tomorrow, and I'm kinda freaking out about it (and not in the good way). I still have to decide who all I want to ask within the path and other depts. My personal statement is crap and my personal life is crap.

More importantly, I need a vacation.

Hope all is well with everyone else. About to head to preggo's shower then out with some friends for mexican. Margaritas fix everything.

And, before I leave, let me just share something with you all that never fails to leave me smiling:

KITTY ALMOST IN A BAG!

KITTY IN A CAVE!

KITTY IN A CHAIR! (about to attack)

On Fire

It's hot. Like, you walk outside and burst into flames type of hot. I think I'll pull up weather channel and apply to every program in any state where the temp is below 90 degrees. This is ridiculous. Heat index was 113 with an actual temp of 105. Seriously? ugh.

However, I finished my anatomic pathology month. Freaking loved it! I only got to see 1 autopsy, which was disappointing, and didn't get to see any limbs grossed in the lab but it was amazing. I seriously miss it. I was so sad I didn't get to go today. Instead I went to family medicine clinic. It was ok, just clinic. And not path. However, I told them if they could get me some quick stains and a microscope I'd read all paps in house. They just thought I was kidding....

This week will be full of meetings. I have my dean's letter meeting (um, still gotta do that personal statement) and a meeting with the chair of the path dept. I need to start asking people for recommendation letters, so I'm sure I'll have to miss a bit of clinic here and there. Hopefully it won't be a big deal.

I also got to see my amazing friends this past weekend. It was kinda lacking since one of the original gang is all married and living elsewhere and couldn't come :( She was there in our thoughts, however. we did stupid stuff like watch Jurassic Park and made dinner and went to the pool. It was a "boys are crap" weekend as well, as me and a friend of mine got screwed over. We didn't let that ruin our fun! And my friend M has two kittens. Tiny tiny, probably 4 weeks old! One of them even peed on me (too young to hold it for long) which caused a very long laughing fit by the 3 of us. Good times, I miss my girls! I'll be going  back and seeing them soon.

Anywhoo, everyone seems to be chugging along with rotations and such. I'm sure I'll have great stories. My story of the day was a 16 yo with chronic pain, needing lortab, who mysteriously disappeared (along with his mother) when we asked for some urine for a drug screen. At first he "couldn't pee" and when they realized he'd be given all the water he could stomach, they systematically disappeared. Ahh, life of direct patient interaction.