False Alarm

So wards taught me that Peds really isn't for me. (whew!). I realized I just love the kids. They are great. The math behind it all is not so much. I like math just fine, but calculating kcal/kg/day or meds gives me a headache. Pathology all the way! (as many of you guys have said since second year).

There is about 3 weeks left in 3rd year. It is awesome and scary both at the same time. I'm ready to get on with my career and start residency, but the process to get there seems very daunting right now. I'm sure I'll trudge along and get through it. Right now I just look at the task ahead and just heave a very large ::sigh:: I'm sure over the next few months I'll blog my way through personal statement, applications, interview and the finale: MATCH DAY (how SCARY is that guys???!!! it's going to be US in March!!!!!)

I guess I'll wander around maybe go study for my step 2. Today a friend and I went to the trail out by the Natchez trace. It was really nice! I plan to frequent the area more often (unfortunately I'll have to wait for another person or someone who will lend me their dog-I don't feel safe going by myself). yay for finding new things to do in Jacktown!

Here's Your Sign

I always find these things interesting, not that I put a lot of value on them, but funny nonetheless.

Some of it is kinda uncanny.

Scorpio is a Fixed Water sign, ruled by Pluto.  Before the discovery of Pluto, the ruling plant for this sign was Mars, and the two are more or less interchangeable with regard to the Scorpio personality, especially since the recent downgrade of Pluto from a full-blown planet to a "dwarf planet."  As the eighth sign of the zodiac, the Scorpio individual is an intense, intuitive, complex, determined soul who gives life his all, for better or worse.  Famous characters sharing this sign include Bill Gates (October 28), Prince Charles (November 14), and Charles Manson (November 12). 

Of all the signs of the zodiac, Scorpios are arguably the most recognizable due to their combination of straight-shooting directness, laser beam mental focus, and critical assessment.  Don't ask Scorpio if you don't want to know the unvarnished truth.  There's no sugar-coating whatsoever here, even if the truth is not pretty.  This tendency does not endear Scorpio to many of the other signs, who consider him overly critical - even hurtfully so.  However, by the same token,  when Scorpio gives you a compliment, it's not as a  condescending gesture, but rather a straight-out, honest assessment that you can indeed be proud of.  Although Scorpio generally performs well in social and work situations, he is most comfortable either alone or with the small circle of family and friends he is closest to.  This is not a sign that actively seeks out the company of others, preferring introversion rather than extroversion whenever possible.  Scorpio is fiercely self-reliant and will almost never seek out the advice of others, preferring to look to himself for his answers.   Although we generally don't comment on physical traits for the zodiac signs in these pages, it is worth noting that many, many Scorpios are noted for their penetrating eyes that make others feel uncomfortable (think Charlie Manson). 

For those with a Scorpio child, you have a kid with a deep emotional bond with you, but who is also quite capable of entertaining himself when you are not available with no hard feelings, especially if he has something interesting to do.  With his sharp mind and inquisitive nature, your little Scorpio will likely soak up knowledge in whatever form you provide it, be it television, books, puzzles, or whatever.  Because of their tendency to be rather introverted, Scorpio kids should be given special attention from time-to-time, as they may tend to get pushed aside by louder, more boisterous siblings - especially older ones.  Make no mistake, though - they  can and will defend themselves, and when angered, they will retaliate fiercely, usually in an unexpected way designed to cause the most damage.   Scorpio kids will appreciate one-on-one time with their parents, but generally won't feel comfortable talking about deeply personal issues.  Keeping it light and fun is a plus with these kids, with the knowledge that if something is really bothering them, they will find a way to let you know, though again, it might be in a roundabout way.  In school. Scorpio is smart enough to ace any of his studies, but he will only put effort into those things that interest him most.  His grades therefore will likely be uneven, though with his adversity for failure, he will likely make enough effort to squeak by in subjects he dislikes. 

Scorpio in the workplace is the one with the office full of odd decorations with either no chairs for visitors or one chair that is hidden in a dark corner.  You won't find Scorpio flitting around the water cooler looking for gossip, as he considers this a complete waste of time and energy.  Because of this, other people in the office will often comment that they think he is mean or unfriendly, and that they are unexplainably uncomfortable in his presence, although Scorpio himself considers his relationships with his co-workers as adequate.  The boss usually loves Scorpio because he is a low-maintenance, industrious worker who is able to completely focus on the task at hand.   The few select people who work more closely with Scorpio and have gotten past his exterior shell find him quite useful, often confiding in him about personal issues to get his honest, straightforward assessment.  Although he doesn't seem emotional or compassionate on the surface, Scorpio will be the one to initiate a fund drive for another employee who has fallen on hard times and needs help, and he will usually do so anonymously to avoid unwanted attention. 

If you have found a romantic partner in a Scorpio, you have a fiercely private, deeply feeling partner indeed.  You may have to get used to the fact that you will never know everything about your Scorpio, but rest assured that if he feels a strong connection to you, he will let you know what you need to know.  Indeed, if he didn't feel a strong connection to you, you wouldn't even be around!   Scorpio is very loyal and expects the same from you.  He is a highly intuitive individual, and will likely instinctively know what you need and want - a very good trait to have in a partner.  However, his intuition will also pick up on imperfections in the relationship, so don't be surprised if he zeros in and starts asking probing questions if you are trying to hide something from him.  It's going to be tough giving your Scorpio mate a surprise birthday party!

The best matches for Scorpio for sure are Cancer and Pisces, but Virgo, Leo, Capricorn, and Sagittarius might also work.  It will likely be tough going with another Scorpio,  Taurus, or Aries.

Scorpio in any relationship is smart and interesting, with surprising intuition.  He may seem quite critical, which is off-putting at times, but you can count on him for an honest assessment.   Don't go to him for sympathy, as he will tell you to pick yourself up by your bootstraps and get on with it.  However, if you are in real trouble, he will likely sympathize and find resources to solve your problem, often in an unconventional way.  If you cross a Scorpio, depending on the circumstances, he may walk away for life, but if he doesn't, he will find a way to even the score to his satisfaction before resuming the friendship.  Despite these pitfalls, Scorpio as a friend has the potential to be one of the most loyal, intuitive, intelligent, nurturing, and helpful friends in the zodiac, so making the effort to dig a little deeper than you have to with other signs will likely provide you with rich rewards in the end!   

Some of that really does describe me, other stuff is meh, not so much.

Wards start Monday, I'm actually looking forward to it because it will tell me if I like peds in the way I think I do. Let's just say that my week of ambulatory made me go "hey, I like peds. HEY! this isn't supposed to happen! I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO CHANGE MY MIND" so we'll see. I'm thinking I'll hate wards and go running straight to the path dept. Or, I'll have to do a peds month between my two path months to figure it out.

Le sigh. No worries, I won't take anyone's spot at UMC if I decide to do peds :) (let's all hope I don't flip the last minute. Can you imagine the HEADACHE of trying to network at this point in time? sheesh.)

Critiques and More

 

That right there completely describes my morning. Boo monday.

So today instead of trying to study, I spent about 2 hours playing with the dogs outside (I'm now known as "laser lady" and it is demanded of me to preform as such. Making it the 4,509 game of laser since Tuesday), and watching 1.5 movies. I'll give you a rundown:

I Hope They Serve Beer In Hell: really funny movie. I would totally recommend it. However, be wary of the company you keep, there are several illicit sex scenes and while watching with the opposite gender it may elicit some "oh crap" sentiments after all is said and done. It does a good job at the gross factor at the end, and as always cheesy make up lines that show all the characters making up in the end. I would almost rate it as a Hangover wannabe, but seeing how the book came out before then I'll just say it's comparable but not close. I'd give it a 4/5 on comedy for it's laugh out loud nature (we all know I love a bring-the-irony-in-the-spotlight) and a 3/5 on content. It's great if you just want to kill a few brain cells and have a good laugh.

Ice Age: Dawn of the Dinosaurs: I was very disappointed in this movie. As a general fan of the "Ice Age" makers, this failed to keep my attention. I was editing my facebook profile in record time. Lack of action packed content and come one-don't lie we all just watch the movie for the spastic squirrel! In about all of 30 min I didn't see the sucker once. The mammoths or something were having kids and building playgrounds. Snore. I give it a 1/5 because the animation was fair if you put the thing on mute (thus making it my 1/2 of a movie since I didn't make it all the way through)

On to Books:

As I mentioned, I'm reading The House of God by Samuel Shem. At first it was off to a slow start, but it has begun to pick up the pace. I have found myself laughing out loud at certain parts, especially the ever so true matter of fact way the author highlights commonplace in some medical practice. There is some strong sexual undertones, especially when the main character speaks of this nurse, but I'll leave the audience out there to read that for themselves. About 10 chapters in, this book is receiving 2/5 just based on the facts that 1. I haven't finished it 2. Slow start 3. preoccupation with boobs. I am looking forward to finishing the book, however.

Another glorious day, not doing much. I'm not hating peds clinic. Doesn't make me want to slit my wrists or pop out my eyeballs like medicine clinic did. I love the kids. Hopefully I won't change my mind from Pathology. I think it's a long shot, but you never know. Those kids are completely precious. Even when they are screaming bloody murder because you have the audacity to listen to their chest with your foreign evil shiny torture device (commonly known as: stethoscope).

I Need a New Camera

Ok, so this is going to be mainly a picture post. I've been at my friend's for almost a week with his precious dogs. Granted, we did have one trying night but I think after that they realized I sleep at night and stay awake during the day. period. haha. I'm really enjoying them and I'm going to be so sad when I have to go back home. I'm really going to miss them.

I'm currently sitting at the house because my day of go to the parent's and do laundry was shot. Why? Because the pipe gave in and we can't have any outflow water. Why? Because it backs up in either the back yard or in the house. So no laundry, no flushing, no sinks. Until it's fixed. I just hope it gets fixed soon (they should have it done by later this afternoon) so it's actually really fortunate I'm away dog/house sitting.

Okay, so everyone, meet the most awesome dogs on the planet:

First, we'll showcase Blue, the female

a little blurry, but she's the sweetest thing. She's a snuggle muffin and usually sleeps with me at night. However, she was the instigator of the 3 am "let's go play outside when you have to wake up at 5 am!"

you can tell that she's just about as big as I am in this picture.

Moving on to Red, a mutt of sorts

He's also massive and the most laid back dog I've ever met.

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My buddy :)

All together now. How cute are they? Even though they hog the couch. Sharing during naps isn't in their vocabulary (I tried haha).


The pics are a big blurry but I'm blaming it on the 3 megapixel camera I still own. Gotta get a new one, it takes crappy pictures now. Half of the ones I take are all blurred and had to be deleted.

I'm going to be so sad when I have to go home :(

Hope everyone's weekend is going well!

Updates and Such

So OB/Gyn came and the gratefully left. I was surprised at how much I disliked the rotation, especially since it was one of my incoming choices as a fresh faced, bushy tailed newly accepted medical student. Gladly that rotation is finished and I can move one week closer to M4 year. Starting peds on a light note (nursery) is giving me a false impression of pediatric life. If you told me peds was like nursery, I may just do peds. I LOVE it. I like the babies. Makes me want one. When I turned 25 the internal biological clock lit up, and now it's heavily ticking away. I swear if you listen carefully you can hear it: tick, tock, TICK, TOCK, TICK, TOCK, TICK, TICK, TICK, TOCK, TIIIIIIIIICK!

I'm sure I'll receive a rude awakening come wards. Otherwise, I'm back in the swing-ish of gymming and my garden (for those of you who didn't know I had one of those) is growing well. Unfortunately I'm 0/2 on sprouting my own cherry tomatoes. But I did successfully grow some zucchini from seeds all by myself! woohoo! I also have some bell peppers, squash, basil, and a collective mix of sweet banana pepper, eggplant, ,and random assorted flowers. I'm pretty pumped about it. I've included some pics of all the awesome that's going on in the back yard. Now if this pollen would just stop I'd be good to go.

Oh, has anyone finished up their step2CS stuff? because I need to book a hotel room. I am sad my friend that lives in Houston will be in Alabama (of all places!) when I'm taking my CS. I just hope for the pass because I do not want to do that crap again. I'll hopefully do well on our school-simulated exam so I can breathe a bit easier. Also, CK is coming fast and hard and I need to start really getting on that! Probably doesn't help that I've started reading House of God this week. It hasn't quite picked up the pace yet, or maybe I've been artificially making this book out to be more awesome than it actually is. More critiques on that later. 

Other than that I will be spending about one full, glorious week at my fellow PathPerson's house sitting with his dogs. Omg I LOVE his dogs. I seriously need some type of visiting arrangement because I kinda go through withdrawl when I don't get to see them. Haha. Okay, ok, I really do like PathPerson as well and always have fun hanging out or talking with him. I'm actually going to be really sad if we don't end up doing path at the same program. Yeah, he's one of those friends that has grown on me, one of those people that thinking of them not being around gives me the sads inside.

So any future posts will be happening from his house. Hope everyone is adjusting well. Just going to give a shout out to HemeOnc Doc, I know you've finally reached your holy grail of 3rd year rotations! That smile this morning was PRICELESS!!!!


Ok, now for pictures:

Baby Basil!

Zucchini with a grown up leaf

Bell Peppers

Big Fig Tree

Fig Glamor Shot

And as always:

KITTY IN A BAG!

Cheers!

Zen

Ob/Gyn has tested my patience in ways I have never been tested. They have finally whittled me down into a person who is jaded, sarcastic, and just wants to lash out in an extreme show of rage and hate. I need to find some papers on meditation. I need to bring my yoga mat and sit in the middle of the L&D suite with my legs crossed, eyes closed, chanting "ohm".

I need to make it 3 more shifts.

I won't even begin to describe the audacity, ignorance, and types of behavior that lead me to believe that the majority of those residents should be fired under the premise of "chip on your shoulder". Honestly, everyone take a Midol (men residents included) and shut the fuck up.

I think 1. failing the rotation or 2. being kicked out of med school (depending on how much physical violence that occurs) would be totally worth putting even ONE of those residents in their place. I am at the end of my rope. For real.

Good luck, Fashionista. Hopefully you see something better in all of it.

Nature's Own Birth Control

A week on L&D has taught me one very important lesson: don't.get.pregnant.

there's just no good way for those things to come out. Natural way leaves you unable to pee or poop correctly, and then everything just falls out once you get older anyway. Not to mention the TEARING. Cringe. C-section isn't that much better either. Once they get down far enough to stick fingers between your fascia and the inside of the abdominal cavity, they just grab a hold and pull then opening wider. PULL. Also with the tearing. then after the baby is out, there is stitching and just not fun things.

I think for my residency I'll spend the majority of the time figuring out a way to grow children in petri dishes. So female bodies may be spared. Otherwise I've had it up to my eyebrows with the residents (especially the ones that like to spend about 10 min in clinic pestering me about wanting to do path. Yes, I'm nice and social and no, I don't want to slit my wrists instead of talking to you...just be quiet. you sound like a moron). I actually mouthed off because they just made me so angry. After that they refuse to really talk to me and I actually prefer it that way.

I am not excited about the night shift, or the test, or the board. I'm not excited about peds either. I really just need a vacation in the worst way. A few WEEKS of alone time, by myself. meaning not at the hospital. Also, I'm going to have to start just walking around the building in order to prevent insanity. I've already had enough of staring at my computer screen memorizing answers for my test tomorrow morning. Cue memory of rant from attending. Although I think the guy in our class was right: he was just trying to pick a fight with someone. He was pissy and agitated and really wanted to lay into someone. The best thing we all could have done WAS done: say nothing. It probably just made him madder. which is excellent in my book. Besides, he's a diva and no one can cure him of that.

Again, what I have learned from my stent on Ob/Gyn: get a dog.