http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2008/12/28/AR2008122801588.html
Above is a little article basically saying that "abstinence only" programs and pledges are less effective at preventing teen pregnancy than talking to your kids about the safe use of condoms and/or birth control pills. WOW. Only took some research and a few statistics for these morons to catch on. The frequent disappearances of several of my high school classmates and increasing number of 13 year olds I see coming into the local hospital clued me in on that way of thinking years ago. Ugh.
So, my baking spree has ended. My holiday is coming to an end. I have 22 weeks until Step (I'm freaking out). Also, I HAVE to get the ball rolling on this name change thing. I'm dreading going down to the social security office like the place is full of Yersinia pestis or something. I'm still not sure how all of this name changing business will go. It's going to be a pain. May as well do it now than later. Besides getting the name thing straight, I'm also trying to organize my life. I think I'm going to finish my tea then straighten up my room. I may head to the gym later, because the doctor reminded me today that losing weight would be a good idea. Unfortunately, my weight has done nothing but increase despite increased exercise and no change in diet. Ugh. Although I think we made progress today and some of that seems to be due to an underlying problem. We'll see.
I really don't want to go back to school. Think anyone would notice if I just quit?
Monday, December 29, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
I'm STILL home for christmas
So I've passed this round of tests, but Micro is still pending. I did better on the lab practical than I expected. Honestly, I think they gave me someone else's grade! The people who flank me in the alphabet both have outstanding grades, and I think something happened while posting grades on blackboard. Hopefully I'm wrong and that really is my grade. I would appreciate it if Micro did get on the horse and post our test grades. I had to work day and night to study for that test, the least they can do is put my grade up in a timely manner. Slackers.
So with school being out until Jan 5, I'm doing just what I need to do. Bake, work out, sleep, repeat. I didn't go to Dallas due to issues with Dr. Pathologist and Dr. Dermpath getting vacation time. Maybe I'll be able to make it out for spring break. We'll see. So I'm stuck at home, with my parents, and none of us are going anywhere. I wish I could say I'll be home for christmas. The real problem is, I never left. Blah. I probably won't come home for many christmases to come. I know I wont' be decorating due to my mother's christmas wonderland that is our house. I actually need her to go to bed so I can wrap her present. It's still sitting in my car.
So I got a call from the lawyer today. The judge signed off on me changing my name. I'm waiting for the official paperwork to come in the mail. Then starts the fun standing in line and getting all of my information changed. I really hope this will go smoothly. Especially at the social security office. I really got to make sure they don't change my SSN. Because then all hell will break loose. I was told they shouldn't change it, but you never know with these people. Hopefully everything will be good to go by the beginning of the year.
So we're doing christmas eve this year. After my brother decided to run off and get married a few days ago, we'll have a new addition to the family. I still haven't made up my mind on the sister in law, but I think a lot of that has to do with the fact that I haven't spent any time with her getting to know her. I'm sure she's a great girl. She has an adorable son so I'm excited about having a new nephew to spoil rotten...once I get a job that is.
So, without further ado, I need to get back to...let's see, right now it's sleeping. I hope to get to see all my friens that are in town. I've been doing something every night, so I'm looking forward to later this week to just sit at home and chill. People are welcome, I'm just tired from staying out until 1 or 2. So if you're in town, holla! I'll be here until 2011
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Happy Holidays!
So with school being out until Jan 5, I'm doing just what I need to do. Bake, work out, sleep, repeat. I didn't go to Dallas due to issues with Dr. Pathologist and Dr. Dermpath getting vacation time. Maybe I'll be able to make it out for spring break. We'll see. So I'm stuck at home, with my parents, and none of us are going anywhere. I wish I could say I'll be home for christmas. The real problem is, I never left. Blah. I probably won't come home for many christmases to come. I know I wont' be decorating due to my mother's christmas wonderland that is our house. I actually need her to go to bed so I can wrap her present. It's still sitting in my car.
So I got a call from the lawyer today. The judge signed off on me changing my name. I'm waiting for the official paperwork to come in the mail. Then starts the fun standing in line and getting all of my information changed. I really hope this will go smoothly. Especially at the social security office. I really got to make sure they don't change my SSN. Because then all hell will break loose. I was told they shouldn't change it, but you never know with these people. Hopefully everything will be good to go by the beginning of the year.
So we're doing christmas eve this year. After my brother decided to run off and get married a few days ago, we'll have a new addition to the family. I still haven't made up my mind on the sister in law, but I think a lot of that has to do with the fact that I haven't spent any time with her getting to know her. I'm sure she's a great girl. She has an adorable son so I'm excited about having a new nephew to spoil rotten...once I get a job that is.
So, without further ado, I need to get back to...let's see, right now it's sleeping. I hope to get to see all my friens that are in town. I've been doing something every night, so I'm looking forward to later this week to just sit at home and chill. People are welcome, I'm just tired from staying out until 1 or 2. So if you're in town, holla! I'll be here until 2011
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Happy Holidays!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
I can do this
I just keep repeating to myself "I can do this...I can do this..." but it's becoming a bit more whiney and more dragging. I'm not very convincing, especially to myself. Yesterday was a bad day. The ICM test pretty much separated the cardiologists from the rest of the population, I'm no longer going to Dallas due to Dr. Pathologist and Dr. Dermpath getting the rest of the christmas season off, and to top it off my brother called and informed me that he and his fiancee' are running off and getting married this weekend. And no one's invited. Eloping was supposed to be MY thing. Fucking older siblings. They ruin everything.
So I just have microbiology left. If anyone had told me that this class would be this much of a suckfest, I would have gone ahead and stood in line for Xanax and Adderall. Jesus christ these people are relentless. And the amount of pointless shit they make us know. Clearly they are not teaching to boards, because half of the information they give us fails to appear in my Clinical Microbiology Made Ridiculously Simple, Microbiology Board Review Series, or my First Aid for the USMLE Step 1. All of them need to be fired. They are doing a horrible job. Who is the manager here? I want to file multiple complaints.
It is 6:21 am. I have my micro lab practical at 1pm. I better get on the horse.
Is it friday yet?
So I just have microbiology left. If anyone had told me that this class would be this much of a suckfest, I would have gone ahead and stood in line for Xanax and Adderall. Jesus christ these people are relentless. And the amount of pointless shit they make us know. Clearly they are not teaching to boards, because half of the information they give us fails to appear in my Clinical Microbiology Made Ridiculously Simple, Microbiology Board Review Series, or my First Aid for the USMLE Step 1. All of them need to be fired. They are doing a horrible job. Who is the manager here? I want to file multiple complaints.
It is 6:21 am. I have my micro lab practical at 1pm. I better get on the horse.
Is it friday yet?
Monday, December 15, 2008
Help Me to Help You, Help Me to Help You
I have realized 3 main things during this round of tests:
1. Rome wasn't built in a day. My pharmaceutical knowledge wasn't either. That time frame is more accurately estimated at 4 hours. That also means that I should in no way, shape, or form ever be responsible for dishing out the pharmaceutical goodies. Looking at the options I picked, I'll most likely kill anyone in heart failure or those needing any time of CNS drug. Not to mention if you have AIDS, HIV, or a parasitic infection don't come looking to me for help. I'll have no idea what to give you. BUT, if you have herpes, then step right up. I've already filled my Rx pad with Acyclovir in every blank. All that is needed is your name and my signature.
2. It is way too early for me to be burnt out. Usually, the headaches and nap taking during tests don't happen until at least wednesday. It definitely happened 30 min into the first test. This is not good.
3. I think my grades would be better if I ever did find that ounce of give a fuck I was looking for last week. I still don't care. When most people, including myself, start feeling the pressure of the impending test week about a week or so before tests, I didn't start feeling the pressure until 6:30 this morning. My test was at 9. As you can see, I'm reading for my freaking christmas break.
My plans? Rot my brain. Thoroughly. With the use of movies and House and Grey's Anatomy marathons. Be it on TV or by the use of my blockbuster card. I also plan to bake. A LOT. So if anyone wants goodies, let me know. I'll be happy to make something for you. Sleep is right up there, and visiting friends. I have my long awaited trip to Dallas which I am starting to get nervous about. More about that later probably. Just really scared of things being awkward. And I'm waiting to hear from a friend that lives in Gulfport. Of course, I'll be doing a christmas shopping spree friday afternoon and all day saturday. So if you want to join me, please come. I'll be cracked out on no sleep, caffiene, and the adrenaline from the madness that will be trying to find presents for everyone. Should be a good time.
Wish me luck. I just hope to come out of it alive.
1. Rome wasn't built in a day. My pharmaceutical knowledge wasn't either. That time frame is more accurately estimated at 4 hours. That also means that I should in no way, shape, or form ever be responsible for dishing out the pharmaceutical goodies. Looking at the options I picked, I'll most likely kill anyone in heart failure or those needing any time of CNS drug. Not to mention if you have AIDS, HIV, or a parasitic infection don't come looking to me for help. I'll have no idea what to give you. BUT, if you have herpes, then step right up. I've already filled my Rx pad with Acyclovir in every blank. All that is needed is your name and my signature.
2. It is way too early for me to be burnt out. Usually, the headaches and nap taking during tests don't happen until at least wednesday. It definitely happened 30 min into the first test. This is not good.
3. I think my grades would be better if I ever did find that ounce of give a fuck I was looking for last week. I still don't care. When most people, including myself, start feeling the pressure of the impending test week about a week or so before tests, I didn't start feeling the pressure until 6:30 this morning. My test was at 9. As you can see, I'm reading for my freaking christmas break.
My plans? Rot my brain. Thoroughly. With the use of movies and House and Grey's Anatomy marathons. Be it on TV or by the use of my blockbuster card. I also plan to bake. A LOT. So if anyone wants goodies, let me know. I'll be happy to make something for you. Sleep is right up there, and visiting friends. I have my long awaited trip to Dallas which I am starting to get nervous about. More about that later probably. Just really scared of things being awkward. And I'm waiting to hear from a friend that lives in Gulfport. Of course, I'll be doing a christmas shopping spree friday afternoon and all day saturday. So if you want to join me, please come. I'll be cracked out on no sleep, caffiene, and the adrenaline from the madness that will be trying to find presents for everyone. Should be a good time.
Wish me luck. I just hope to come out of it alive.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Let Me Introduce Myself
It's friday, I'm sitting in a microbiology lab review, and my christmas vacation is so close I can taste it. I'm so excited about my christmas break. I probably will spend a good bit brushing up my first year knowledge in rapid preparation for step 1. But I'll still have fun. I will be doing a lot of baking, hopefully spending time with my niece and nephew, and visiting friends. I'm still planning on going to Dallas and meeting up with Dr. Pathologist and Dr. Dermpath. I'm so excited about seeing them, and getting to see TERATOMA! So excited about the teratoma. But I'm also excited to see my friends too. I saw Dr. Dermpath a few months ago. I haven't seen Dr. Pathologist in forever, so I can't wait to give him a big hug. I just need to try try try try try my best to stay focused and not fail my tests too bad. I have a good feeling this round of tests will lower my grades a bit.
I thought it would also be a good time to announce to those of you who read my blog that I'm in the process of changing my last name. I have encountered many problems with my last name, both professionally and personally. So I finally got pissed enough and got a lawyer and I have done the initial paperwork to change it. I won't release the new name here, but I'll contact everyone once it's finalized and let you know. Hopefully it'll be in effect by the new year. I'm not looking forward to having to tell everyone, and especially the questions that will follow. But it'll be good to get it done before 3rd year so none of the doctors associate me with my new last name, and I can go into residency and have my medical liscence with a better name than my current one. I actually tried to talk my parents into letting me change my middle name too...but my mom had a fit since she was the one that came up with that name. So just the last name it is.
But, enough of all that. Back to the grind.
I thought it would also be a good time to announce to those of you who read my blog that I'm in the process of changing my last name. I have encountered many problems with my last name, both professionally and personally. So I finally got pissed enough and got a lawyer and I have done the initial paperwork to change it. I won't release the new name here, but I'll contact everyone once it's finalized and let you know. Hopefully it'll be in effect by the new year. I'm not looking forward to having to tell everyone, and especially the questions that will follow. But it'll be good to get it done before 3rd year so none of the doctors associate me with my new last name, and I can go into residency and have my medical liscence with a better name than my current one. I actually tried to talk my parents into letting me change my middle name too...but my mom had a fit since she was the one that came up with that name. So just the last name it is.
But, enough of all that. Back to the grind.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Is it Friday Yet?
So, tues, 8:10 am and I am in a FOUL mood. I started off the morning dragging, I had to dress up and get my white coat together because I'm supposed to go do a history today for my preceptor, I showed up for my ONE class this morning (a guest speaker from State who actually teaches), and to top it off, it's hot and raining and it's DECEMBER! DECEMBER PEOPLE! Why is it hot? Why is it 70 degrees outside? I hate this place.
Next week is test week. I'm doing ok studying for pathology and pharmacology...but it's microbiology I have a problem with. I am reaching into the dark depths of my soul and for the life of me can't pull out the smallest ounce of give a fuck. It's impossible for me to study for that class, because I don't give a flying fuck about the parasite that affects 1% of the population on some remote island off Vietnam that you'll only ever see if you're a missionary or stationed soldier. Tip: when going to foreign countries, don't drink the water, don't eat anything that's raw, and especially whatever you do don't stick anything in your eye. You'll be fine. And I'll never have to know this shit.
The only thing that can possibly keep me from dropping out at this point is that each and every one of my family members will kill me. Actually, I love every miserable minute. Don't let me fool you. But sometimes, it's just like, FUCK. I'm definitely burnt out right now, and christmas break can't come soon enough. I'm so excited to be going to Dallas and seeing Dr. Pathologist and Dr. Pathologists's brother Dr. Dermpath. I really want to go to the cotton bowl, for all you Ole Miss fans out there, but unfortunately I cannot justify two visits to Dallas within one week. :( I think after we do christmas eve stuff, I may be going down to the coast to visit one of my friends. I plan on spending a lot of time this vacation doing just that. Vacationing. If anyone wants me to come visit, then let me know. I may work you in. I just need to get out and get away for a while.
So, with that, I will sit back and wait for the 9 am to get here. Then probably off to the library to be antisocial and study some more pathology. I've already told two people to keep walking this morning. I think it's best I stay away from people today.
Next week is test week. I'm doing ok studying for pathology and pharmacology...but it's microbiology I have a problem with. I am reaching into the dark depths of my soul and for the life of me can't pull out the smallest ounce of give a fuck. It's impossible for me to study for that class, because I don't give a flying fuck about the parasite that affects 1% of the population on some remote island off Vietnam that you'll only ever see if you're a missionary or stationed soldier. Tip: when going to foreign countries, don't drink the water, don't eat anything that's raw, and especially whatever you do don't stick anything in your eye. You'll be fine. And I'll never have to know this shit.
The only thing that can possibly keep me from dropping out at this point is that each and every one of my family members will kill me. Actually, I love every miserable minute. Don't let me fool you. But sometimes, it's just like, FUCK. I'm definitely burnt out right now, and christmas break can't come soon enough. I'm so excited to be going to Dallas and seeing Dr. Pathologist and Dr. Pathologists's brother Dr. Dermpath. I really want to go to the cotton bowl, for all you Ole Miss fans out there, but unfortunately I cannot justify two visits to Dallas within one week. :( I think after we do christmas eve stuff, I may be going down to the coast to visit one of my friends. I plan on spending a lot of time this vacation doing just that. Vacationing. If anyone wants me to come visit, then let me know. I may work you in. I just need to get out and get away for a while.
So, with that, I will sit back and wait for the 9 am to get here. Then probably off to the library to be antisocial and study some more pathology. I've already told two people to keep walking this morning. I think it's best I stay away from people today.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Med School Secret
It's not my secret, but it is how I feel.
My cadaver was named Oscar by the members of table 14.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Pre Christmas Rundown
Ok, so there will be 2 weeks left before my next round of tests. Seeing how I am 2 weeks behind, that gives me 4 weeks of ground to cover in 2 weeks. So, my rundown of the next 2 weeks will go like this:
Nov 29-Dec 5: frantically catch up in microbiology and pathology. This may include foregoing transcriptions and ppts and just using rapid review and clinical microbiology made ridiculously simple. Also need to go over all pharmacology and do notecards for appropriate drugs. Must do some work for the ACLS project also (read: busywork)
Dec 5-7: up in the air, have a friend coming to town so I'll study when I can and just enjoy having company over the rest of the time.
Dec 8-12: study like a freaking madwoman. This includes going over notes and any new material. Old tests will become the main way to hone my study material to the bare minimum.
Dec 15-19: test week
Dec 21-23/24: Dallas
So you'll all understand if I become scarce these next few weeks. I am incredibly burnt out, so I can't wait for my friend to come so I have an excuse to not study. But it also means I have to get it in gear so I can afford to take off the time. I wish everyone luck on the tests, and I hope we can all keep it together for just a little longer. because then we'll be on Christmas break.
Over and out.
Nov 29-Dec 5: frantically catch up in microbiology and pathology. This may include foregoing transcriptions and ppts and just using rapid review and clinical microbiology made ridiculously simple. Also need to go over all pharmacology and do notecards for appropriate drugs. Must do some work for the ACLS project also (read: busywork)
Dec 5-7: up in the air, have a friend coming to town so I'll study when I can and just enjoy having company over the rest of the time.
Dec 8-12: study like a freaking madwoman. This includes going over notes and any new material. Old tests will become the main way to hone my study material to the bare minimum.
Dec 15-19: test week
Dec 21-23/24: Dallas
So you'll all understand if I become scarce these next few weeks. I am incredibly burnt out, so I can't wait for my friend to come so I have an excuse to not study. But it also means I have to get it in gear so I can afford to take off the time. I wish everyone luck on the tests, and I hope we can all keep it together for just a little longer. because then we'll be on Christmas break.
Over and out.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Day to Give Thanks
Happy Thanksgiving to all of you out there in blogworld. As tradition, today is known to be the day that we all think about what we are thankful for....TURKEY. No, but seriously, we are so blessed to live in this country and have all that we do. So I wish everyone a glorious day, have fun with friends, family, don't curse too much at the football game, try not to slip into a turkey coma, be safe on the roads and in the airways as you travel, and for the love of all that is Holy...HOTTY MUTHAFUCKIN TODDY. BEAT STATE!
So, without further ado, I'm going to make a list of some of the things that I am thankful for, even though I bitch about all of them.
I am thankful for still living at home. It means that I have a family that is willing to support me and help me in any way they can.
I am thankful for my father. He was very strict as I grew up and even to a point now, but it shows I have a father who loves me and was committed to raising me to be the person I am today.
I am thankful for my mother. Her constant brooding means that she will do anything in her power to make me happy and will do anything for me.
I am thankful for my bitchy sister and her two out of control children. It means that I have one sister who is there for me and a niece and nephew to spoil rotten.
I am thankful for my overprotective brother. I am thankful I have one big brother who is always there for me.
I am thankful for Jill and her son Jack. It means that my brother has finally found two people that make him happy. And that makes me happy.
I am thankful for Uncle Tony, Aunt Rosa, Robert, Anthony, Sebbie, Sam, Jessica, Miranda, Philip, Arielle, Mackenzie, Seven, and Liv. They mean that I have a piece of my family again.
I am thankful for having no life due to school. Because it means I am living my dream of going to medical school and becoming a doctor.
I am thankful for my big ass. It is there because I have enough food to eat.
I am thankful for our government. It means that I have freedom.
I am thankful for all my friends. They mean that I am a person worth caring about.
I am thankful for my crush. It means that I am capable of having feelings for someone again.
I am thankful for not getting everything I want. It means that I value everything that I do have more.
Those are just what I can think of off the top of my head. I am truly blessed to have all that I do. So today, no complaining. Again, everyone have a wonderful and safe thanksgiving.
And it's ok if you slip into that turkey coma. :)
So, without further ado, I'm going to make a list of some of the things that I am thankful for, even though I bitch about all of them.
I am thankful for still living at home. It means that I have a family that is willing to support me and help me in any way they can.
I am thankful for my father. He was very strict as I grew up and even to a point now, but it shows I have a father who loves me and was committed to raising me to be the person I am today.
I am thankful for my mother. Her constant brooding means that she will do anything in her power to make me happy and will do anything for me.
I am thankful for my bitchy sister and her two out of control children. It means that I have one sister who is there for me and a niece and nephew to spoil rotten.
I am thankful for my overprotective brother. I am thankful I have one big brother who is always there for me.
I am thankful for Jill and her son Jack. It means that my brother has finally found two people that make him happy. And that makes me happy.
I am thankful for Uncle Tony, Aunt Rosa, Robert, Anthony, Sebbie, Sam, Jessica, Miranda, Philip, Arielle, Mackenzie, Seven, and Liv. They mean that I have a piece of my family again.
I am thankful for having no life due to school. Because it means I am living my dream of going to medical school and becoming a doctor.
I am thankful for my big ass. It is there because I have enough food to eat.
I am thankful for our government. It means that I have freedom.
I am thankful for all my friends. They mean that I am a person worth caring about.
I am thankful for my crush. It means that I am capable of having feelings for someone again.
I am thankful for not getting everything I want. It means that I value everything that I do have more.
Those are just what I can think of off the top of my head. I am truly blessed to have all that I do. So today, no complaining. Again, everyone have a wonderful and safe thanksgiving.
And it's ok if you slip into that turkey coma. :)
Monday, November 24, 2008
Pass the Coffee
Is it Friday yet? This is the question I have been asking myself all day. And it's only 10:30. It's already turned into a crapshoot. I woke up after 4 hours of sleep, hurried to school to find out that the 10 am is mandatory, not the 8 am. Yeah, not a good theme for today or the week. Plus, Officer Helga got the first guy to shut off his microphone when he was giving out test goodies. That just pisses me off, because we record lectures for a reason. So you can sit at home and listen and not waste time sitting in class. She's really getting on my last nerve, and today is not the day for her to even attempt talking to me. I left my filter at home this morning.
I'm not that pumped about thanksgiving. I need a week long vacation, not two whimpy days that they've decided to pass off as a "vacation". I need to catch up, and I need to get out of town for a few days. I'm growing weary of this place. Good news is I have a friend coming to town in 2 weeks. I'm really pumped. I've been having the hardest time coming up with a HIPAA approved name for him. I had a bought of insomnia last night, where I ended up laying awake in bed trying to come up with a name for him. The best one I could come up with was Sir Leprechaun, but I don't know if that's going to stick. I do think I need to go with something of Irish inspiration. But Leprechauns make me happy. So Sir Leprechaun it is.
I also have to start christmas shopping soon. I really hate that about christmas. I never know what to get people. I'm glad several of my friends have told me point blank what they want. We're not doing presents this year in the family, or so I've been told. I think my brother and his fiancee are getting me something, but I'm not getting anyone anything. I don't have the money, and neither does anyone else. I would think just getting together and not fighting for 4 hours is enough of a Merry Christmas. But otherwise, I won't be getting anyone anything. If you get me something and didn't tell me you were planning on exchanging gifts, then tough. So if you want something, or plan on getting me something, let me know. Because otherwise, you'll just get a lump of coal. Bah humbug.
That's all for now, but it's only Monday.
I'm not that pumped about thanksgiving. I need a week long vacation, not two whimpy days that they've decided to pass off as a "vacation". I need to catch up, and I need to get out of town for a few days. I'm growing weary of this place. Good news is I have a friend coming to town in 2 weeks. I'm really pumped. I've been having the hardest time coming up with a HIPAA approved name for him. I had a bought of insomnia last night, where I ended up laying awake in bed trying to come up with a name for him. The best one I could come up with was Sir Leprechaun, but I don't know if that's going to stick. I do think I need to go with something of Irish inspiration. But Leprechauns make me happy. So Sir Leprechaun it is.
I also have to start christmas shopping soon. I really hate that about christmas. I never know what to get people. I'm glad several of my friends have told me point blank what they want. We're not doing presents this year in the family, or so I've been told. I think my brother and his fiancee are getting me something, but I'm not getting anyone anything. I don't have the money, and neither does anyone else. I would think just getting together and not fighting for 4 hours is enough of a Merry Christmas. But otherwise, I won't be getting anyone anything. If you get me something and didn't tell me you were planning on exchanging gifts, then tough. So if you want something, or plan on getting me something, let me know. Because otherwise, you'll just get a lump of coal. Bah humbug.
That's all for now, but it's only Monday.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
And Now I'm Scared Shitless
I'll be taking Step 1 on May 29, 2009 at 9 am.
I think I just shit my pants.
I think I just shit my pants.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
I Just Want to Use Your Love Tonight
So I'm anxiously awaiting the email from USMLE telling me I can register for my Step 1 test day. Several people in my class have already done it, so I'm starting to get really ancy waiting for it. I want to go ahead and get it done so all that can be out of my way. I expect to get the email in the next week. Until then, I will become a supremely compulsive email checker.
Went to Oxford this past weekend and watched the Ole Miss vs. Louisiana Monroe game. All I can say is that I haven't seen Ole Miss play so well since a Manning was on the team. They blitzed LM 59-0. I can attest, as an alumni, that the boys on the team earned their scholarship money that day. Unfortunately I couldn't stick out the entire game. It became so cold that my liver got frostbite. It began raining at first, and then it either turned to sleet or snow, we couldn't tell. My Nashville Native friend and I headed back to our tent in the grove, lowered it all the way, and made a warm coccoon of Hotty Toddy along with an awesome cheeseball. Not a figurative cheeseball, but a real one. The one you eat with crackers and is rolled around in chopped pecans. Well, when the friends who could only make it to the end of the 3rd quarter came back, they told us we looked shady sitting in the grove like that. You could only see feet, and if there was any sign of smoke then one could argue we had been in the pot patch located near the intramural field. It was such a fun time. I got to see great people. I forget how much I really miss my friends, and even Oxford to an extent. I'm much more of a city girl, but there is a certain appeal of such a small town. In fact, it's grown so much since I was there only 2 years ago. Much more to do, more dining, more stores. I'm freaking jealous. It was a long needed change for the town in general. I plan on going to at least one baseball game so that's going to be something to look forward to.
This year will be interesting as it comes to holidays. We're not doing thanksgiving at my house. I'll be going to my Aunt and Uncle's house, and my brother and sister will be going just to their father's house. Christmas I think will be different, since now we're switching to christmas eve instead of christmas day. It's really funny, because a while ago I was preparing for an impending engagment and marriage. I talked to my mother how his family also did the christmas morning thing, and how we may have to change to a christmas eve thing. Well, she would have none of that. We had always done christmas day and it was going to stay that way. I guess it took my brother getting engaged for her to switch. I'm not mad, I just think it's funny. So this year will see many changes as far as holidays go. At least I won't have to eat my mother's dry turkey for days on end. But sshhhh!! Don't tell her I said that. At least she doesn't fry it. People who fry turkeys just make me want to punch them in the face. Yeah, have fun with your atherosclerosis later in life. Bake your turkey this thanksgiving. Your arteries will thank you!
I recently read an article stating how primary care doctors are either planning on cutting back or getting out of medicine completely. I think, coming from the medicine point of view, that this has been a long time coming. Many doctors are unsatisfied in their jobs. The hours are long, the pay is becoming increasingly less, and the paperwork is enough to make your eyeballs pop out of their sockets and say "fuck you" as they walk away. There is a huge shortage of primary care doctors. We're told that almost any time they can fit it into a sentence at my medical school. But I think something that's not understood is how much work these doctors have. They are constantly swamped, and then they turn around and get sued, or Medicare/Medicaid/Insurance companies tell them that a service that costs $1 is only worth $0.20. So in reality, I can't blame a lot of these physicians either saying "screw this, I'm retiring or I'll make more waiting tables" or "I'm just working 8-5 and taking lots of vacation from now on". Now with the threat of the government stepping in to "improve medical access and care" (read: Government will eventually take over and the whole system will go to shit) it even makes some of us who haven't been able to even write a prescription yet think twice about our current career choice. Hopefully, the only thing the government will do is tell the insurance companies to stop making so much profit, for the bloodsucking lawyers to lay off the lawsuits, and put more trust in a doctor's training and clinical experience. Also, reimbursing a doctor properly for his time and training would go a long way too. But I highly doubt America is ready to do that. Medicine is going to hell in a handbasket, I agree. But the solution is not to pay doctors $40,000 a year and make them work 15 hour days. That's a great way to not have practicing doctors at all.
Ok, enough of my medical rant. I need to save some energy for my cell phone company. They've been charging for texts my mother has been getting. I'm going to see if they can block texts, since most of the time they're from a wrong number. If not, then I'll consider going somewhere else in the future for cell phone coverage. I don't agree for paying for something that I'm not using or that is not in my control. Also, I have to work up some nerve to call my ex roomate and clear some things with her. There has been some drama and even though it wasn't because of us, it was blamed on us. I'm going to be an adult and take care of this once and for all.
Until next time,
K
Went to Oxford this past weekend and watched the Ole Miss vs. Louisiana Monroe game. All I can say is that I haven't seen Ole Miss play so well since a Manning was on the team. They blitzed LM 59-0. I can attest, as an alumni, that the boys on the team earned their scholarship money that day. Unfortunately I couldn't stick out the entire game. It became so cold that my liver got frostbite. It began raining at first, and then it either turned to sleet or snow, we couldn't tell. My Nashville Native friend and I headed back to our tent in the grove, lowered it all the way, and made a warm coccoon of Hotty Toddy along with an awesome cheeseball. Not a figurative cheeseball, but a real one. The one you eat with crackers and is rolled around in chopped pecans. Well, when the friends who could only make it to the end of the 3rd quarter came back, they told us we looked shady sitting in the grove like that. You could only see feet, and if there was any sign of smoke then one could argue we had been in the pot patch located near the intramural field. It was such a fun time. I got to see great people. I forget how much I really miss my friends, and even Oxford to an extent. I'm much more of a city girl, but there is a certain appeal of such a small town. In fact, it's grown so much since I was there only 2 years ago. Much more to do, more dining, more stores. I'm freaking jealous. It was a long needed change for the town in general. I plan on going to at least one baseball game so that's going to be something to look forward to.
This year will be interesting as it comes to holidays. We're not doing thanksgiving at my house. I'll be going to my Aunt and Uncle's house, and my brother and sister will be going just to their father's house. Christmas I think will be different, since now we're switching to christmas eve instead of christmas day. It's really funny, because a while ago I was preparing for an impending engagment and marriage. I talked to my mother how his family also did the christmas morning thing, and how we may have to change to a christmas eve thing. Well, she would have none of that. We had always done christmas day and it was going to stay that way. I guess it took my brother getting engaged for her to switch. I'm not mad, I just think it's funny. So this year will see many changes as far as holidays go. At least I won't have to eat my mother's dry turkey for days on end. But sshhhh!! Don't tell her I said that. At least she doesn't fry it. People who fry turkeys just make me want to punch them in the face. Yeah, have fun with your atherosclerosis later in life. Bake your turkey this thanksgiving. Your arteries will thank you!
I recently read an article stating how primary care doctors are either planning on cutting back or getting out of medicine completely. I think, coming from the medicine point of view, that this has been a long time coming. Many doctors are unsatisfied in their jobs. The hours are long, the pay is becoming increasingly less, and the paperwork is enough to make your eyeballs pop out of their sockets and say "fuck you" as they walk away. There is a huge shortage of primary care doctors. We're told that almost any time they can fit it into a sentence at my medical school. But I think something that's not understood is how much work these doctors have. They are constantly swamped, and then they turn around and get sued, or Medicare/Medicaid/Insurance companies tell them that a service that costs $1 is only worth $0.20. So in reality, I can't blame a lot of these physicians either saying "screw this, I'm retiring or I'll make more waiting tables" or "I'm just working 8-5 and taking lots of vacation from now on". Now with the threat of the government stepping in to "improve medical access and care" (read: Government will eventually take over and the whole system will go to shit) it even makes some of us who haven't been able to even write a prescription yet think twice about our current career choice. Hopefully, the only thing the government will do is tell the insurance companies to stop making so much profit, for the bloodsucking lawyers to lay off the lawsuits, and put more trust in a doctor's training and clinical experience. Also, reimbursing a doctor properly for his time and training would go a long way too. But I highly doubt America is ready to do that. Medicine is going to hell in a handbasket, I agree. But the solution is not to pay doctors $40,000 a year and make them work 15 hour days. That's a great way to not have practicing doctors at all.
Ok, enough of my medical rant. I need to save some energy for my cell phone company. They've been charging for texts my mother has been getting. I'm going to see if they can block texts, since most of the time they're from a wrong number. If not, then I'll consider going somewhere else in the future for cell phone coverage. I don't agree for paying for something that I'm not using or that is not in my control. Also, I have to work up some nerve to call my ex roomate and clear some things with her. There has been some drama and even though it wasn't because of us, it was blamed on us. I'm going to be an adult and take care of this once and for all.
Until next time,
K
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Ex+Ex's Cousin=Awkward Turtle. Write that down.
So it is officially 6 am and I am awake. Now, I'm not normally the morning person type, but for some reason my eyes popped open and wouldn't close again. So, I relented and proceeded to get up. Today will be a full plate. I have a mandatory pathology lab session, I have to make sure my Step 1 registration gets mailed out today (and NOT wet, it's been raining and that's all I need...a crumpled wet picture), I need to clean my disaster zone of a room, need to gym, plus I need to start buckling down hardcore for this block. God, that made me tired just thinking about it.
I'll be heading to the Alma Mater this weekend (woo!) for a visit with friends and some good quality FOOTBALL. Although, I won't be going to the game (not much for the dressing up that goes with the territory), but I will be enjoying some good ol' tailgating. I'm so excited...I'm ready to get out of town and get a mini vacation as well as see some of my friends that I haven't seen in a while. As far as the game goes, I'll probably just head back to someone's apartment and watch the game, or listen to it on the radio while hanging at the tailgate tent. So excited.
Speaking of vacations, it looks like I will indeed be visiting Dr. Pathologist over the Christmas holidays. I'm pretty excited since I haven't seen him in about 5 or so years. Plus, I know he'll show me a lot of good stuff that will help me out for path as well as for the step and subject boards. Hopefully I'll get some shadow time with his brother, who does derm path. Derm path is hard, but derm was my favorite block in histology. Dr. Pathologist does GI and GU...which I could never tell what is what and it just all looked like a hot mess. Maybe he can help me see the villi for the trees.
My birthday went well. Had a small get together at my house that included hamburgers and hot dogs. That helped with the whole getting a group larger than 4 into a restaurant. Then went out for beers on Friday night, where the Awkwardly Strange Ex and his cousin made much of an interesting night. The Awkwardly Strange Ex's cousin made a move on my friend the Cupcake Queen. It was so NOT smooth...he handed her his number (which was written on a napkin with no name...guess he was that memorable?) in front of EVERYONE and said "give me a call sometime if you wanna get some dinner". I hope they didn't hear Cupcake Queen freaking out on the way to the parking lot. I guess I need to be careful around those two...obviously just being nice and trying to spur conversation with two of the weirdest human beings on the face of the planet correlates to "I want to bone your brains out". So...lesson of the week: don't bring the Awkwardly Strange Ex and his cousin out into mixed company. It makes for a very awkward turtle night for everyone.
Saturday included a girls' day. My friend is getting married in August and so she decided to take all us bridesmaids and herself to a popular bridal shop out of town to get her dress and find a bridesmaid dress. The day was uneventful and fun, except later that night where there was all types of drama. It's way too long and confusing to write down, but it ended on me being severely confused and everyone else pissed off. I later talked to my friend and she didn't exactly know what all happened either. So, we're cool. haha. Leave it up to a group of 7 drunk girls to cause drama. This wedding is going to be fun! (it will be, but I'm sure the drama doesn't end here!).
Well, I need to get going with my day. Hope the week pans out great for everyone.
Until next time!
K
I'll be heading to the Alma Mater this weekend (woo!) for a visit with friends and some good quality FOOTBALL. Although, I won't be going to the game (not much for the dressing up that goes with the territory), but I will be enjoying some good ol' tailgating. I'm so excited...I'm ready to get out of town and get a mini vacation as well as see some of my friends that I haven't seen in a while. As far as the game goes, I'll probably just head back to someone's apartment and watch the game, or listen to it on the radio while hanging at the tailgate tent. So excited.
Speaking of vacations, it looks like I will indeed be visiting Dr. Pathologist over the Christmas holidays. I'm pretty excited since I haven't seen him in about 5 or so years. Plus, I know he'll show me a lot of good stuff that will help me out for path as well as for the step and subject boards. Hopefully I'll get some shadow time with his brother, who does derm path. Derm path is hard, but derm was my favorite block in histology. Dr. Pathologist does GI and GU...which I could never tell what is what and it just all looked like a hot mess. Maybe he can help me see the villi for the trees.
My birthday went well. Had a small get together at my house that included hamburgers and hot dogs. That helped with the whole getting a group larger than 4 into a restaurant. Then went out for beers on Friday night, where the Awkwardly Strange Ex and his cousin made much of an interesting night. The Awkwardly Strange Ex's cousin made a move on my friend the Cupcake Queen. It was so NOT smooth...he handed her his number (which was written on a napkin with no name...guess he was that memorable?) in front of EVERYONE and said "give me a call sometime if you wanna get some dinner". I hope they didn't hear Cupcake Queen freaking out on the way to the parking lot. I guess I need to be careful around those two...obviously just being nice and trying to spur conversation with two of the weirdest human beings on the face of the planet correlates to "I want to bone your brains out". So...lesson of the week: don't bring the Awkwardly Strange Ex and his cousin out into mixed company. It makes for a very awkward turtle night for everyone.
Saturday included a girls' day. My friend is getting married in August and so she decided to take all us bridesmaids and herself to a popular bridal shop out of town to get her dress and find a bridesmaid dress. The day was uneventful and fun, except later that night where there was all types of drama. It's way too long and confusing to write down, but it ended on me being severely confused and everyone else pissed off. I later talked to my friend and she didn't exactly know what all happened either. So, we're cool. haha. Leave it up to a group of 7 drunk girls to cause drama. This wedding is going to be fun! (it will be, but I'm sure the drama doesn't end here!).
Well, I need to get going with my day. Hope the week pans out great for everyone.
Until next time!
K
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Sit Down and Stop Your Bitching
Ok...So this will be the first and last time I say anything about the election of '08. I will start off with a disclaimer-If you think for any reason that I am out of line, a racist, too conservative, too liberal, a tree hugger, a terrorist, stupid, retarded, ignorant, blind, blasphemous, a bigot, or anything else negative where you just point out that you're right and I'm wrong if I don't agree on the ways you think, then I suggest you find another blog to read. I'm taking into my hands the first amendment-The right to free speech and press.
As many of you know, Barack Obama was declared the winner of the 2008 Presidential election. That means, for the next 4 years, Obama will be leading the United States of America. I think whether or not I voted or supported Obama, I will say that I am an American who supports my country. Therefore, I now support Obama. I don't agree with everything he says. That's what makes this country great. I just hope that he will strive to make this country what once made it great. A people, united together, to protect liberty and freedom at any cost. People who fought for what they believed in, fought for freedom, fought for not only themselves but their neighbors as well. Who had morals, values, and a sense of personal responsibility.
With that being said, I think everyone needs to simmer down and stop whining.
Those who supported Obama, I am all about seeing what he does with this country. How he will lead us in the future. I hope he does make this a better place to live. I hope he makes it a better place for our children. But I think you need to calm down and stop professing how a "black man finally made it to the white house". I am proud of this country, to overcome the battles it has. But at the same time, I am ashamed to think that this was nothing more than a racial issue that involved the most important and powerful job in america. If you voted for Obama because you just wanted to have a black president: you should be ashamed of yourself. This isn't a white vs. black issue. This is the president of the United States! You should support someone for what they have proven themselves to be so far. Vote because you know that what they promise to do as the next president will be carried out. Not because it sounds good, not because they look good, because they have proven themselves in office and proven themselves a leader. Not because they are black, or white, or purple, or spotted, or male, or female. And being from the south, I think that this should show each and every person who believes they deserve more and are owed more that you can do it too-all without handouts. This should inspire every person that with enough passion and will you can do it without excuses. So quit the in your face black man president deal, quit the whining that you are owed something, and get off your ass and get some initiative just like Obama did.
And to those who didn't support Obama-quit your bitching too. So, you voted for McCain or Barr or wrote in a ballot electing Bessie the cow. Obama is president. Suck it up and be an American. If I remember correctly from the history classes I slept through in high school, hundreds of thousands of people have died over the past 200 years to keep this country alive. They gave their lives to make sure that we can still have elections today. That vetos can happen, that if someone hasn't proven themselves worthy of a government position, then as a country we can fire them (not to take Donald Trump's copyrighted line of "you're fired!") and nominate someone that we think is better for the gig. Those people DIED to make sure that you have the freedom to say that you think Obama is not the person you would trust with this country. Instead of bitching how he'll turn us into a socialist country, or how this is the beginning of the end, suck it up and be an American. Realize that he'll be here for the next 4 years. So give him some time to prove what he can do. Not one president has followed through on all his promises during elections. There is still only so much a president can do. There are checks and balances. There is a house and a senate. Doesn't anyone remember 9th grade civics? I mean, granted, I hated history. I hated my government classes. I loved math and science and is probably the uncanny reason why I went into Medicine to begin with. But unless we as a people give him the power to be a dictator, there are still limitations to what Obama can do in office. So calm down.
I will admit that I was not the happiest camper when Obama was deemed the winner of the election. I have always had a mistrust of what he said, and never did believe everything he promised. I listened to one speech, and became wary that a lot of what he said sounded very socialist. I'm not too thrilled at the idea of losing a good chunk of my future paycheck just because I make too much money. I am also worried that too many people in this country drank the koolaid for whatever their reason may be. But at the same time, I realize that right now, all I need to do is support my country. The world didn't end when Obama was elected. I need to support those people who still give their lives to protect what each and every one of us have. I'm taking my own advice. I'm sitting down, and the bitching has stopped.
I need to remind myself more often of the struggles we all go through. The fact that my grandparents came to this country with nothing but the clothes on their back and their family, to make a life in the greatest country in the world. The only country where you can start with nothing, and eventually see your granchildren graduate from college, become doctors, and make a life for themselves you could only dream about back in your homeland. People today still struggle to one day have a taste of the freedom that we have selfishly taken for granted the past few decades. Where all we cared about was what the government can do for me, and what I can get because I'm owed. This country was not founded on handouts. It was founded on the principle that if you worked hard enough, sacrificed enough, and wanted hard enough-you can get it. I think Obama has shown us just that. I'm not the most knowledgeable on his background, but I guarantee that no one can say he was born with some pre-determined presidential silver spoon in his mouth. I hope he serves as an inspiration to each and every person in this country, as well as outside this country.
The American Dream: coming from nothing to become something.
And if you don't like it, fuck it. Move to Canada. That's what I'll be doing if I become unhappy with America.
I'm done for the next 4 years. Thank you, and goodnight.
As many of you know, Barack Obama was declared the winner of the 2008 Presidential election. That means, for the next 4 years, Obama will be leading the United States of America. I think whether or not I voted or supported Obama, I will say that I am an American who supports my country. Therefore, I now support Obama. I don't agree with everything he says. That's what makes this country great. I just hope that he will strive to make this country what once made it great. A people, united together, to protect liberty and freedom at any cost. People who fought for what they believed in, fought for freedom, fought for not only themselves but their neighbors as well. Who had morals, values, and a sense of personal responsibility.
With that being said, I think everyone needs to simmer down and stop whining.
Those who supported Obama, I am all about seeing what he does with this country. How he will lead us in the future. I hope he does make this a better place to live. I hope he makes it a better place for our children. But I think you need to calm down and stop professing how a "black man finally made it to the white house". I am proud of this country, to overcome the battles it has. But at the same time, I am ashamed to think that this was nothing more than a racial issue that involved the most important and powerful job in america. If you voted for Obama because you just wanted to have a black president: you should be ashamed of yourself. This isn't a white vs. black issue. This is the president of the United States! You should support someone for what they have proven themselves to be so far. Vote because you know that what they promise to do as the next president will be carried out. Not because it sounds good, not because they look good, because they have proven themselves in office and proven themselves a leader. Not because they are black, or white, or purple, or spotted, or male, or female. And being from the south, I think that this should show each and every person who believes they deserve more and are owed more that you can do it too-all without handouts. This should inspire every person that with enough passion and will you can do it without excuses. So quit the in your face black man president deal, quit the whining that you are owed something, and get off your ass and get some initiative just like Obama did.
And to those who didn't support Obama-quit your bitching too. So, you voted for McCain or Barr or wrote in a ballot electing Bessie the cow. Obama is president. Suck it up and be an American. If I remember correctly from the history classes I slept through in high school, hundreds of thousands of people have died over the past 200 years to keep this country alive. They gave their lives to make sure that we can still have elections today. That vetos can happen, that if someone hasn't proven themselves worthy of a government position, then as a country we can fire them (not to take Donald Trump's copyrighted line of "you're fired!") and nominate someone that we think is better for the gig. Those people DIED to make sure that you have the freedom to say that you think Obama is not the person you would trust with this country. Instead of bitching how he'll turn us into a socialist country, or how this is the beginning of the end, suck it up and be an American. Realize that he'll be here for the next 4 years. So give him some time to prove what he can do. Not one president has followed through on all his promises during elections. There is still only so much a president can do. There are checks and balances. There is a house and a senate. Doesn't anyone remember 9th grade civics? I mean, granted, I hated history. I hated my government classes. I loved math and science and is probably the uncanny reason why I went into Medicine to begin with. But unless we as a people give him the power to be a dictator, there are still limitations to what Obama can do in office. So calm down.
I will admit that I was not the happiest camper when Obama was deemed the winner of the election. I have always had a mistrust of what he said, and never did believe everything he promised. I listened to one speech, and became wary that a lot of what he said sounded very socialist. I'm not too thrilled at the idea of losing a good chunk of my future paycheck just because I make too much money. I am also worried that too many people in this country drank the koolaid for whatever their reason may be. But at the same time, I realize that right now, all I need to do is support my country. The world didn't end when Obama was elected. I need to support those people who still give their lives to protect what each and every one of us have. I'm taking my own advice. I'm sitting down, and the bitching has stopped.
I need to remind myself more often of the struggles we all go through. The fact that my grandparents came to this country with nothing but the clothes on their back and their family, to make a life in the greatest country in the world. The only country where you can start with nothing, and eventually see your granchildren graduate from college, become doctors, and make a life for themselves you could only dream about back in your homeland. People today still struggle to one day have a taste of the freedom that we have selfishly taken for granted the past few decades. Where all we cared about was what the government can do for me, and what I can get because I'm owed. This country was not founded on handouts. It was founded on the principle that if you worked hard enough, sacrificed enough, and wanted hard enough-you can get it. I think Obama has shown us just that. I'm not the most knowledgeable on his background, but I guarantee that no one can say he was born with some pre-determined presidential silver spoon in his mouth. I hope he serves as an inspiration to each and every person in this country, as well as outside this country.
The American Dream: coming from nothing to become something.
And if you don't like it, fuck it. Move to Canada. That's what I'll be doing if I become unhappy with America.
I'm done for the next 4 years. Thank you, and goodnight.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Dumbass says what?
So a very cracked out dream woke me up this morning. Too long to write out here, but if anyone is terribly interested, I'd be happy to tell you. The inner workings of my head are very, very scary.
So I didn't do anything for Halloween. Last year I was busy studying gross anatomy, and this year I had a friend who needed to go to the hot tub, chill, and just vent. Which, I felt was a good use for my night. Can't ever beat hot tub. After that, I came home and tried to watch Dracula. Me and my dumbass thought there would be horror movies left at the movie store. I was wrong. All the ones left were the really crappy ones. I am glad I found Dracula, but by the time I started watching it I was falling asleep. So I just put it up and went to bed. Perhaps next year, when the majority of my friends go to the party, then I'll go.
So I've gotten back into running. My mom got me a new ipod for my birthday (it's red and pretty!) so I've decided to get back into it. I'm starting back slow, since it's been a while since I've been consistent with it. I'm pretty excited. Maybe I can run a marathon one day? That would be wicked. I'd at least have a good excuse to travel to Chicago, Boston, New York, etc.
I've also stuck to my no class policy. I've talked to several other people in my class who came to the same conclusion that I have-you learn more by not going to class. Which, I would think is completely the opposite of what is supposed to happen. Isn't lecture supposed to help you learn the materia? Well, obviously not at our medical school. Actually, I have never encountered such horrible teaching before in my life. And one would think that at medical school, you would have some of the best teaching. Not the case. I'm actually not impressed at all with the teaching that I have encountered so far. It's like these people are just throwing us in the water, and if they see us drowning, they just kinda go "huh, pity". I can only count on one hand the teachers that actually teach and just don't throw out information to us and tell us to go learn it. Some people are good at learning on their own. And others, like me, that have actually been taught in undergrad, had a much harder time figuring out to learn on their own. Something as important as gross anatomy had some of the worst teaching. Same goes with Pharmacology. Two cornerstones to Medicine, and the faculty doesn't lift one finger to help you out, even when you go in search of it. Some teachers feel like they are teaching and are doing a good job, but in reality, what they do is stand up at the front of the room and lecture for 50 minutes but don't say anything.
A wise man speaks because he has something to say. A fool speaks because he has to say something.
My birthday is also next week. I'm trying to get together some margaritas to replace the birthday cake. You know, there's not much to look forward to after 21 except turning 30. I'm actually getting old enough to start lying about my age. I'm just not looking forward to my mother pressing marriage and children and when all that is going to happen. Because, even though I'm considered an old maid in the south, my mother won't consider me one until I'm done with school. So I have two years free of the marriage and babies nagging. Honestly, I don't think I'll ever marry, and since I have plenty of nieces, nephews, and cousins to borrow at any time I feel the need to have a child. I think I'll just become the old cat lady.
Keep it real,
K
So I didn't do anything for Halloween. Last year I was busy studying gross anatomy, and this year I had a friend who needed to go to the hot tub, chill, and just vent. Which, I felt was a good use for my night. Can't ever beat hot tub. After that, I came home and tried to watch Dracula. Me and my dumbass thought there would be horror movies left at the movie store. I was wrong. All the ones left were the really crappy ones. I am glad I found Dracula, but by the time I started watching it I was falling asleep. So I just put it up and went to bed. Perhaps next year, when the majority of my friends go to the party, then I'll go.
So I've gotten back into running. My mom got me a new ipod for my birthday (it's red and pretty!) so I've decided to get back into it. I'm starting back slow, since it's been a while since I've been consistent with it. I'm pretty excited. Maybe I can run a marathon one day? That would be wicked. I'd at least have a good excuse to travel to Chicago, Boston, New York, etc.
I've also stuck to my no class policy. I've talked to several other people in my class who came to the same conclusion that I have-you learn more by not going to class. Which, I would think is completely the opposite of what is supposed to happen. Isn't lecture supposed to help you learn the materia? Well, obviously not at our medical school. Actually, I have never encountered such horrible teaching before in my life. And one would think that at medical school, you would have some of the best teaching. Not the case. I'm actually not impressed at all with the teaching that I have encountered so far. It's like these people are just throwing us in the water, and if they see us drowning, they just kinda go "huh, pity". I can only count on one hand the teachers that actually teach and just don't throw out information to us and tell us to go learn it. Some people are good at learning on their own. And others, like me, that have actually been taught in undergrad, had a much harder time figuring out to learn on their own. Something as important as gross anatomy had some of the worst teaching. Same goes with Pharmacology. Two cornerstones to Medicine, and the faculty doesn't lift one finger to help you out, even when you go in search of it. Some teachers feel like they are teaching and are doing a good job, but in reality, what they do is stand up at the front of the room and lecture for 50 minutes but don't say anything.
A wise man speaks because he has something to say. A fool speaks because he has to say something.
My birthday is also next week. I'm trying to get together some margaritas to replace the birthday cake. You know, there's not much to look forward to after 21 except turning 30. I'm actually getting old enough to start lying about my age. I'm just not looking forward to my mother pressing marriage and children and when all that is going to happen. Because, even though I'm considered an old maid in the south, my mother won't consider me one until I'm done with school. So I have two years free of the marriage and babies nagging. Honestly, I don't think I'll ever marry, and since I have plenty of nieces, nephews, and cousins to borrow at any time I feel the need to have a child. I think I'll just become the old cat lady.
Keep it real,
K
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
What Did You Just Say!?
It's only Tuesday, and this week has already been full of epic fail.
So I started this block off not going to class unless it's mandatory. And of course I miss an epic elitist comment from none other than Officer Helga at the healthcare discussion lunch. The lunch was lead by the dean of the medical school, and was to discuss the whole right vs. priviledge attitude toward healthcare. Well, naturally, Officer Helga couldn't keep her mouth shut and her opinions to herself and proceeded to inform not only the dean, but everyone at the luncheon, that a CEO of a company deserves better healthcare than a waitress because the waitress doesn't work hard. Yes, you heard me correctly. Waitresses don't work hard, and therefore don't deserve the same coverage as the CEO of some large company. Granted, this is all secondhand information since I personally wasn't present at said luncheon. But OH! I wish I had been there! Needless to say, the story continues with quite the uprising and rucus of the entire appauled student body. So, she has branded herself an outspoken, socially inept elitist. Must be nice to have that type of reputation following you into third year rotations. And the BEST part of it all: she doesn't see it as a problem! In fact, it's all of US who are wrong. Lucky for her, she'll be entering a military residency program, so her dean's letter won't mean much in terms of her future career. Why, oh why do I miss out on the good stuff?
I went to pharmacology today, because we were supposed to be getting some assignment. I thought it would be some little online quiz or something to complete before small groups or something like that. But noooooooooooo. They had to give us ANOTHER group assignment on top of the assignment that has been posted at the beginning of the year. And, they assign the group and I get stuck with the biggest group of supreme type A's in the class. This is due sometime in November, and we have to read a case report, then as a group come up with 2 USMLE style questions. Then, we have to give reasoning as to why the right answer is right, and all the others are wrong. It's supposed to "help" us in preparing for the Step. Well, I think it's f*$#!ing b@!&*s%$#! and I personally think that the best way to prepare for the step is for you to f%#@ing stop giving me busy work and let me f%$@!ing study!!!! I seriously have a problem with these people and their stupid projects. I'm not a graduate student. I most likely will never make tests, and if I did, they won't be ridiculous. I'm not a member of the USMLE Step 1 board of question writers. I am a MEDICAL STUDENT who is studying to be a DOCTOR and I don't see how ANY of this is preparing me to take the Step and become a GOOD DOCTOR! If anything, this is just unnecessarily increasing my stress levels. Epic, EPIC fail.
If that wasn't enough, there was a food crisis today for the pathology interest group. The lady that told me last time that she had no problem ordering the food for us, decided today that she wasn't going to order the food after all. And left it up to the VP to do it. Which, she's on medicine and doesn't get a break until around 1 or 2 pm. So I was running around trying to make sure there will actually be food at the meeting tomorrow. Luckily, the lady decided that she'll order the food after all. And from what she told me today she'll go ahead and order food from now on for simplicity. But for some odd reason, I don't believe it. But by that point in the day, I was near breaking. I still had to go to WalMart and get cokes and cups because the path department refuses to spend money on drinks. Ugh.
So, the good thing about today is that I got a haircut. It's happy. I'm excited about it. I'm going to go help out a friend because I flaked on her last night. instead of helping her on her grant like I said I would, I got drunk with a bunch of friends instead. It was completely out of character for me, and I typically don't go back on my word. I really feel bad about the entire situation, and intend on getting it done and making it up to her.
So, that has been the epic fail of the past two whole days. I hope it's not a theme for the rest of the week. I've actually been kinda down on myself lately. Getting into a funk and I'm not too happy about it.
Let's hope everyone makes it to Friday. Peace out.
K
So I started this block off not going to class unless it's mandatory. And of course I miss an epic elitist comment from none other than Officer Helga at the healthcare discussion lunch. The lunch was lead by the dean of the medical school, and was to discuss the whole right vs. priviledge attitude toward healthcare. Well, naturally, Officer Helga couldn't keep her mouth shut and her opinions to herself and proceeded to inform not only the dean, but everyone at the luncheon, that a CEO of a company deserves better healthcare than a waitress because the waitress doesn't work hard. Yes, you heard me correctly. Waitresses don't work hard, and therefore don't deserve the same coverage as the CEO of some large company. Granted, this is all secondhand information since I personally wasn't present at said luncheon. But OH! I wish I had been there! Needless to say, the story continues with quite the uprising and rucus of the entire appauled student body. So, she has branded herself an outspoken, socially inept elitist. Must be nice to have that type of reputation following you into third year rotations. And the BEST part of it all: she doesn't see it as a problem! In fact, it's all of US who are wrong. Lucky for her, she'll be entering a military residency program, so her dean's letter won't mean much in terms of her future career. Why, oh why do I miss out on the good stuff?
I went to pharmacology today, because we were supposed to be getting some assignment. I thought it would be some little online quiz or something to complete before small groups or something like that. But noooooooooooo. They had to give us ANOTHER group assignment on top of the assignment that has been posted at the beginning of the year. And, they assign the group and I get stuck with the biggest group of supreme type A's in the class. This is due sometime in November, and we have to read a case report, then as a group come up with 2 USMLE style questions. Then, we have to give reasoning as to why the right answer is right, and all the others are wrong. It's supposed to "help" us in preparing for the Step. Well, I think it's f*$#!ing b@!&*s%$#! and I personally think that the best way to prepare for the step is for you to f%#@ing stop giving me busy work and let me f%$@!ing study!!!! I seriously have a problem with these people and their stupid projects. I'm not a graduate student. I most likely will never make tests, and if I did, they won't be ridiculous. I'm not a member of the USMLE Step 1 board of question writers. I am a MEDICAL STUDENT who is studying to be a DOCTOR and I don't see how ANY of this is preparing me to take the Step and become a GOOD DOCTOR! If anything, this is just unnecessarily increasing my stress levels. Epic, EPIC fail.
If that wasn't enough, there was a food crisis today for the pathology interest group. The lady that told me last time that she had no problem ordering the food for us, decided today that she wasn't going to order the food after all. And left it up to the VP to do it. Which, she's on medicine and doesn't get a break until around 1 or 2 pm. So I was running around trying to make sure there will actually be food at the meeting tomorrow. Luckily, the lady decided that she'll order the food after all. And from what she told me today she'll go ahead and order food from now on for simplicity. But for some odd reason, I don't believe it. But by that point in the day, I was near breaking. I still had to go to WalMart and get cokes and cups because the path department refuses to spend money on drinks. Ugh.
So, the good thing about today is that I got a haircut. It's happy. I'm excited about it. I'm going to go help out a friend because I flaked on her last night. instead of helping her on her grant like I said I would, I got drunk with a bunch of friends instead. It was completely out of character for me, and I typically don't go back on my word. I really feel bad about the entire situation, and intend on getting it done and making it up to her.
So, that has been the epic fail of the past two whole days. I hope it's not a theme for the rest of the week. I've actually been kinda down on myself lately. Getting into a funk and I'm not too happy about it.
Let's hope everyone makes it to Friday. Peace out.
K
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Sorry, I must have misplaced my common sense
So I'm sitting in bed just listening to music and wishing that I could call up Mr. Graphic Designer to hang out. And it just hit me like a ton of freaking bricks. Just like that. Good job, Med Student. Freaking perfect. All the things I have said, all the things that have happened over the years, and the things that our strangely hung friend revealed to me. Unfortunately, I don't know how to fix the situation. Or if it's even fixable. I am a horrible person. Not to mention bad friend, but before that a bad person. Ugh.
My heart just broke a little. And that's always a bad feeling. I just hope to God for some reason I'm wrong. I really do. Because I don't know if I could live with myself otherwise.
I know, two posts within two days. I just had to put it down to make myself realize how horrible of a person I've been in the past 2 years. How oblivious and horrible. Christ. Call it my little online confession. Looks like it's going to be a bad day after all.
My heart just broke a little. And that's always a bad feeling. I just hope to God for some reason I'm wrong. I really do. Because I don't know if I could live with myself otherwise.
I know, two posts within two days. I just had to put it down to make myself realize how horrible of a person I've been in the past 2 years. How oblivious and horrible. Christ. Call it my little online confession. Looks like it's going to be a bad day after all.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Class=fail
So block 2 is officially over. I realized that I do in fact score lower on tests when I go to class. I went to more classes this block, and on average scored 5 points less on my tests. So, since I'm supposed to be smart and all that, I'm not going to class at all next block unless it's mandatory. I seem to learn much much better on my own.
It's finally cooling off and it's great. I need to clean my room because it looks like a disaster zone, and then I need to pull all of my winter clothes down so I can start wearing all of that stuff. Dr. Pathologist almost came this weekend, which would have been great. I guess he decided against it though. We're doing GI and Derm path next block, so I'm really tempted to go out and see him and his brother since Dr. Pathologist is a GI specialist and Dr. Pathologist's brother is a Derm path specialist. We'll see how all that goes.
Today I plan on cleaning hardcore. I'm also going to the free clinic to volunteer. I really enjoy my time at the free clinic. I didn't really think I would. Although, I always have to find a friend to go with because it's in the GHETTO and I'm scared to be in that neighborhood by myself. I also need to start studying for the Step, I guess I'll have to make out a schedule to start doing that. I also want to get back into running. I've been good about doing gym, but I think I really want to take up hitting the pavement again. Hopefully with not going to class I can make the most of my time, and will be able to go running instead of being too wiped from class and then spending too much time teaching myself after hours.
Christmas has already made an appearance at my house. My mother has an unhealthy obsession with the holiday. And everything in the house makes noise or chimes or sings or lights up and it's like I'm living in hell. Although, I'll only have to deal with it another 2 times after this, so it's not that big of a deal. All I know is that when I'm on my own, it'll take me all of 30 minutes to set up a fake tree and put a wreath on my door. Bah humbug.
I believe that's all for today. I didn't do jack last week except try to hopelessly cram information in my head. Just to get screwed over in the end. The tests were ridiculous, and the teaching was some of the crappiest I've ever been exposed to. Even the buzzwords on pathology didn't work. They'd put all the stuff I knew in the question, and then ask some obscure receptor signaling question that no one knew. Bleh. It's just so frustrating because you just never know how they'll ask questions on the test. You can do all of the old tests, and they are just so straightforward. And then you open up the test and it's all this bullshit like "where was the first transposon discovered" and "what is the signaling mechanism of myeloproliferative disorder". UGH! I just want to make it through step and make it to third year. It'll be better once all of this classroom lecture bullshit is over. When all I take are boards. Because they don't ask that type of crap very often. Maybe a couple of questions, instead of the entire test. I'll make them all my bitch next block. HA!
Cheers.
K
It's finally cooling off and it's great. I need to clean my room because it looks like a disaster zone, and then I need to pull all of my winter clothes down so I can start wearing all of that stuff. Dr. Pathologist almost came this weekend, which would have been great. I guess he decided against it though. We're doing GI and Derm path next block, so I'm really tempted to go out and see him and his brother since Dr. Pathologist is a GI specialist and Dr. Pathologist's brother is a Derm path specialist. We'll see how all that goes.
Today I plan on cleaning hardcore. I'm also going to the free clinic to volunteer. I really enjoy my time at the free clinic. I didn't really think I would. Although, I always have to find a friend to go with because it's in the GHETTO and I'm scared to be in that neighborhood by myself. I also need to start studying for the Step, I guess I'll have to make out a schedule to start doing that. I also want to get back into running. I've been good about doing gym, but I think I really want to take up hitting the pavement again. Hopefully with not going to class I can make the most of my time, and will be able to go running instead of being too wiped from class and then spending too much time teaching myself after hours.
Christmas has already made an appearance at my house. My mother has an unhealthy obsession with the holiday. And everything in the house makes noise or chimes or sings or lights up and it's like I'm living in hell. Although, I'll only have to deal with it another 2 times after this, so it's not that big of a deal. All I know is that when I'm on my own, it'll take me all of 30 minutes to set up a fake tree and put a wreath on my door. Bah humbug.
I believe that's all for today. I didn't do jack last week except try to hopelessly cram information in my head. Just to get screwed over in the end. The tests were ridiculous, and the teaching was some of the crappiest I've ever been exposed to. Even the buzzwords on pathology didn't work. They'd put all the stuff I knew in the question, and then ask some obscure receptor signaling question that no one knew. Bleh. It's just so frustrating because you just never know how they'll ask questions on the test. You can do all of the old tests, and they are just so straightforward. And then you open up the test and it's all this bullshit like "where was the first transposon discovered" and "what is the signaling mechanism of myeloproliferative disorder". UGH! I just want to make it through step and make it to third year. It'll be better once all of this classroom lecture bullshit is over. When all I take are boards. Because they don't ask that type of crap very often. Maybe a couple of questions, instead of the entire test. I'll make them all my bitch next block. HA!
Cheers.
K
Monday, October 13, 2008
Our Secret Motives
So, I know I have tests starting a week from today, but I just had to post this because I feel that it will get some of it out of my head so I can focus.
One of my friends recently started dating a long ago friend and ex of mine. No, I'm not upset. Which is what everyone has asked. Honestly, I couldn't be happier for them. All I have ever wanted for any of my friends and even ex's is happiness. What weirds me out is that...well, it's those two dating each other. From my knowledge they have been friends for a long time, and what I had been told each of them considered the other on the level of a sibling. Practically one of those people you could just never date because you couldn't get around the awkward. My brain just can't wrap around the idea. If I try to think about it, it's like my brain flashes some blue screen of death and I immediately start thinking about puppies. It's rather odd. I don't know how long it will take me before I will be able to not shut down to the idea. Happy for them, yes. Comprehend how this happened? No.
Which made my mind trail into another thought. They were friends for a long time. Does that mean that there is a hidden agenda behind every guy/girl friendship? Does it mean that every friendship I have had with a guy has had a secret motive behind it of possibly dating or getting into my pants one day? Or can a guy and a girl just have a lot in common and enjoy each other's company on a completely platonic level?
I started analyzing past friendships I had with guys. Several did end up with what can politely be referred to as friends with benefits. Some I have kept on strict friend level for years. There are the exceptions. Like they never call or hang out or want to talk to me unless they're single. Or the ones that always were trying to get with me and I was just too oblivious to notice. Or the one that I can't shake the feeling that he keeps his distance now because he thought I was in love with him when I was really talking about someone else.
I don't have the answer. Maybe it exists on a person to person basis. Maybe what makes us friends in the first place is that instant attraction that eventually turns into friendship once a relationship failed to begin. Whatever the case, I guess no one can really say if there is a secret motive behind the friendship or not. I suppose the best way is to just be upfront with each other, and ask if they want or have considered more. Maybe you'll get an honest answer. Maybe not. And maybe the friendship will be solid enough that if you are split on the issue, that it can still prevail if one person feels different from the other. Or, in the best case scenerio, telling them that you have always felt a spark can lead you to the most amazing relationship. Friendships are based on love. Be it platonic love, or romantic love...love is always there. I love all my friends. Some more than others, and sometimes even in a different way. Love is still the foundation as to why I hold them to be such precious members of my life. Maybe one day I can confront some of these questions myself. Grow some nuts and just have that awkward conversation just to know.
On a RANDOM note, I had no idea that Flyleaf was a christian band. Who would have known? Ok, Mr. Graphic designer...you probably did. Although, you fully realize that I'm retarded. :) Although, I do have you to thank for introducing me to Flyleaf. Whenever I hear one of their songs, I think of you. Miss you!
Flyleaf, All around me
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you
I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you owe me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed
One of my friends recently started dating a long ago friend and ex of mine. No, I'm not upset. Which is what everyone has asked. Honestly, I couldn't be happier for them. All I have ever wanted for any of my friends and even ex's is happiness. What weirds me out is that...well, it's those two dating each other. From my knowledge they have been friends for a long time, and what I had been told each of them considered the other on the level of a sibling. Practically one of those people you could just never date because you couldn't get around the awkward. My brain just can't wrap around the idea. If I try to think about it, it's like my brain flashes some blue screen of death and I immediately start thinking about puppies. It's rather odd. I don't know how long it will take me before I will be able to not shut down to the idea. Happy for them, yes. Comprehend how this happened? No.
Which made my mind trail into another thought. They were friends for a long time. Does that mean that there is a hidden agenda behind every guy/girl friendship? Does it mean that every friendship I have had with a guy has had a secret motive behind it of possibly dating or getting into my pants one day? Or can a guy and a girl just have a lot in common and enjoy each other's company on a completely platonic level?
I started analyzing past friendships I had with guys. Several did end up with what can politely be referred to as friends with benefits. Some I have kept on strict friend level for years. There are the exceptions. Like they never call or hang out or want to talk to me unless they're single. Or the ones that always were trying to get with me and I was just too oblivious to notice. Or the one that I can't shake the feeling that he keeps his distance now because he thought I was in love with him when I was really talking about someone else.
I don't have the answer. Maybe it exists on a person to person basis. Maybe what makes us friends in the first place is that instant attraction that eventually turns into friendship once a relationship failed to begin. Whatever the case, I guess no one can really say if there is a secret motive behind the friendship or not. I suppose the best way is to just be upfront with each other, and ask if they want or have considered more. Maybe you'll get an honest answer. Maybe not. And maybe the friendship will be solid enough that if you are split on the issue, that it can still prevail if one person feels different from the other. Or, in the best case scenerio, telling them that you have always felt a spark can lead you to the most amazing relationship. Friendships are based on love. Be it platonic love, or romantic love...love is always there. I love all my friends. Some more than others, and sometimes even in a different way. Love is still the foundation as to why I hold them to be such precious members of my life. Maybe one day I can confront some of these questions myself. Grow some nuts and just have that awkward conversation just to know.
On a RANDOM note, I had no idea that Flyleaf was a christian band. Who would have known? Ok, Mr. Graphic designer...you probably did. Although, you fully realize that I'm retarded. :) Although, I do have you to thank for introducing me to Flyleaf. Whenever I hear one of their songs, I think of you. Miss you!
Flyleaf, All around me
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you
I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you owe me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed
Saturday, October 11, 2008
One, Two, Three...PANIC!
Okay, sooo....I have one more week to cram all of the material that I have ignored for the past 4 weeks into my head. I'm freaking going out of my mind! I called my friend Dr. Pathologist up (yes, that's going to be his new HIPAA approved name) almost on the verge of tears to ask him how to differentiate leukemia with blood smears. He politely calmed me down saying that they won't just stick up a blood smear and make me identify it. He said that not even hematopathologists can do that. So it calmed me down long enough to take the pathology quiz where now I am back to borderline nervous breakdown. There weren't blood smears, but one or two blood smear descriptions and then identify what the person has. I don't know anything! And pharm...there are around 200 notecards with drugs for me to learn. CNS drugs, GI, lipid lowerers, antigoagulants, asthma, vasoactives, and antihypertensives will ALL be on this next test. I'm going to FAIL.
So needless to say, I've packed myself in my nerd hole. No visitors allowed. I'm even ignoring procrastination efforts (this being the only one of today) which should tell you alot on how I'm completely and utterly panicking. I didn't even go to the fair for lunch with my friend because I couldn't justify wasting the time. My friend and ex to the ex roomate W was in town, so I did take a break and ate dinner with him and another friend. I just kinda want these tests to be over with, so I can go ahead and start fresh and furious for next block. I guess it's good that I'm learning my lesson now instead of later. I also need to plan how I'm going to study for Step 1 that's happening in May. AND plan a trip to go shadow Dr. Pathologist over christmas break. Not forgetting the movie night my friend promised me once tests were over.
There's more on the karma front. Seems like Ms. Natural disaster has now taken leave. I'm assuming it's a year leave, since missing tests will not get you to next year on time. There seems to be some shady business going on, and the rumor mill has produced a story of almost a forced leave. It's good that she won't be with us anymore. She was not popular with many people as she always seemed to get out of tests and somehow always got her way with the administration. I too had a negative attitude, and if I would be on rotations with her next year, I'd have in the back of my head a question as to how she would be able to weasel her way out of her responsibilities this time. I'm seeing this as a positive thing for all people. I do wish her well, and I hope that nothing is seriously wrong. She can get everything she needs together and start again fresh. Now...if only I can get rid of Officer Helga (again, HIPAA approved name), I'd be set. I'm sure I'll talk more about her later, since she seems to piss me off on a semi-daily basis.
Wish me luck!
K
So needless to say, I've packed myself in my nerd hole. No visitors allowed. I'm even ignoring procrastination efforts (this being the only one of today) which should tell you alot on how I'm completely and utterly panicking. I didn't even go to the fair for lunch with my friend because I couldn't justify wasting the time. My friend and ex to the ex roomate W was in town, so I did take a break and ate dinner with him and another friend. I just kinda want these tests to be over with, so I can go ahead and start fresh and furious for next block. I guess it's good that I'm learning my lesson now instead of later. I also need to plan how I'm going to study for Step 1 that's happening in May. AND plan a trip to go shadow Dr. Pathologist over christmas break. Not forgetting the movie night my friend promised me once tests were over.
There's more on the karma front. Seems like Ms. Natural disaster has now taken leave. I'm assuming it's a year leave, since missing tests will not get you to next year on time. There seems to be some shady business going on, and the rumor mill has produced a story of almost a forced leave. It's good that she won't be with us anymore. She was not popular with many people as she always seemed to get out of tests and somehow always got her way with the administration. I too had a negative attitude, and if I would be on rotations with her next year, I'd have in the back of my head a question as to how she would be able to weasel her way out of her responsibilities this time. I'm seeing this as a positive thing for all people. I do wish her well, and I hope that nothing is seriously wrong. She can get everything she needs together and start again fresh. Now...if only I can get rid of Officer Helga (again, HIPAA approved name), I'd be set. I'm sure I'll talk more about her later, since she seems to piss me off on a semi-daily basis.
Wish me luck!
K
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
A personal Statement
If he had just gone to the psychiatrist like I asked, I think that we'd still be together.Thank you, postsecret. Someone out there has the same secret I have.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
First post on new blog
Greetings all,
I've decided to move away from myspace and blog here instead. I thought it was time to get a real blog instead of using a generic form from an online networking site.
So I'm one week into my second block of second year. First block went well, passed all my tests so I'm really happy about that. We're starting real microbiology so I'm happy that we've moved away from immunology. Pharmacology is going to suck because the CNS drugs are complicated and the 140 page "review" the teacher sent out for self study is very dense. Luckily I can just chug through it for the next 5 weeks andI know I'll get through it by the test. I've really enjoyed the much more laid back scheduling of this year. Not every minute is planned for us, and we're not as micro-managed into mandatory lab sessions or 8-5 class blocks. Plus, the information doesn't seem as bad. I don't know if it's because the material itself is more visibly relevant to being a doctor, there is less material, or if I'm just used to drinking out of the fire hose so it doesn't seem as bad. Maybe it's a combination of all three. Who knows.
Went out last night to celebrate my friend J's birthday. It was a lot of fun. We went to the local irish-inspired pub and just sat around and chatted all night. It started raining, so we all stayed until closing. We sat outside for half of the night, where we all proceeded to be eaten alive by mosquitoes. There was also a group of some Teacher Corp teachers that all taught at one of the local high schools. They all looked about 12 years old and 70 lbs...so it was weird when they started hitting on several female members of our group. So that occupied the two teachers in our group while us nerds were left to talking about cadavers and other nerdy things most people don't understand. Or want to hear.
My ex roomate came, and unfortunately L and E and C all abandoned me at one point so I was left to her relentless babbling for a part of the night. I swear if there had been a pillow nearby I would have held it over her head while no one was looking until the thrashing stopped. Not really, but by that point in the night I was too tired to get up and just walk off in the middle of one of her pointless stories about herself. I was DD for several of my friends, so I ended up walking to the car in the rain in order to be nice and pick up my friends by the bar. Unfortunately, sometimes drunk people need to be put on leashes, and by the time I got to the car the people I was driving had all followed me in the rain to my car. Silly people. But I had fun. It was nice to get out. My friend W from college will be in town, so I think I'll be seeing him next weekend as well. I'm pretty excited. We always got along well, even if he had dated my ex roomate for a while. I can look past that small lapse in judgement and chill and catch up with him for a bit.
Needless to say, We got in really late last night and I've been napping off and on all day. I heard from my friend M which is always nice. I really enjoy talking to him. I have such fond memories of him when I was younger. I really do miss him. I wish he lived here, but I'm sure he's much happier where he is now. I haven't gotten a whole lot done today, not as much as I should have. I did read the lab manual assignment, and I'll be finishing up a few micro lectures by the time I go to bed. I'll just have to buckle down tomorrow and really hit it.
Keep it real.
K.
I've decided to move away from myspace and blog here instead. I thought it was time to get a real blog instead of using a generic form from an online networking site.
So I'm one week into my second block of second year. First block went well, passed all my tests so I'm really happy about that. We're starting real microbiology so I'm happy that we've moved away from immunology. Pharmacology is going to suck because the CNS drugs are complicated and the 140 page "review" the teacher sent out for self study is very dense. Luckily I can just chug through it for the next 5 weeks andI know I'll get through it by the test. I've really enjoyed the much more laid back scheduling of this year. Not every minute is planned for us, and we're not as micro-managed into mandatory lab sessions or 8-5 class blocks. Plus, the information doesn't seem as bad. I don't know if it's because the material itself is more visibly relevant to being a doctor, there is less material, or if I'm just used to drinking out of the fire hose so it doesn't seem as bad. Maybe it's a combination of all three. Who knows.
Went out last night to celebrate my friend J's birthday. It was a lot of fun. We went to the local irish-inspired pub and just sat around and chatted all night. It started raining, so we all stayed until closing. We sat outside for half of the night, where we all proceeded to be eaten alive by mosquitoes. There was also a group of some Teacher Corp teachers that all taught at one of the local high schools. They all looked about 12 years old and 70 lbs...so it was weird when they started hitting on several female members of our group. So that occupied the two teachers in our group while us nerds were left to talking about cadavers and other nerdy things most people don't understand. Or want to hear.
My ex roomate came, and unfortunately L and E and C all abandoned me at one point so I was left to her relentless babbling for a part of the night. I swear if there had been a pillow nearby I would have held it over her head while no one was looking until the thrashing stopped. Not really, but by that point in the night I was too tired to get up and just walk off in the middle of one of her pointless stories about herself. I was DD for several of my friends, so I ended up walking to the car in the rain in order to be nice and pick up my friends by the bar. Unfortunately, sometimes drunk people need to be put on leashes, and by the time I got to the car the people I was driving had all followed me in the rain to my car. Silly people. But I had fun. It was nice to get out. My friend W from college will be in town, so I think I'll be seeing him next weekend as well. I'm pretty excited. We always got along well, even if he had dated my ex roomate for a while. I can look past that small lapse in judgement and chill and catch up with him for a bit.
Needless to say, We got in really late last night and I've been napping off and on all day. I heard from my friend M which is always nice. I really enjoy talking to him. I have such fond memories of him when I was younger. I really do miss him. I wish he lived here, but I'm sure he's much happier where he is now. I haven't gotten a whole lot done today, not as much as I should have. I did read the lab manual assignment, and I'll be finishing up a few micro lectures by the time I go to bed. I'll just have to buckle down tomorrow and really hit it.
Keep it real.
K.
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