Okay, sooo....I have one more week to cram all of the material that I have ignored for the past 4 weeks into my head. I'm freaking going out of my mind! I called my friend Dr. Pathologist up (yes, that's going to be his new HIPAA approved name) almost on the verge of tears to ask him how to differentiate leukemia with blood smears. He politely calmed me down saying that they won't just stick up a blood smear and make me identify it. He said that not even hematopathologists can do that. So it calmed me down long enough to take the pathology quiz where now I am back to borderline nervous breakdown. There weren't blood smears, but one or two blood smear descriptions and then identify what the person has. I don't know anything! And pharm...there are around 200 notecards with drugs for me to learn. CNS drugs, GI, lipid lowerers, antigoagulants, asthma, vasoactives, and antihypertensives will ALL be on this next test. I'm going to FAIL.
So needless to say, I've packed myself in my nerd hole. No visitors allowed. I'm even ignoring procrastination efforts (this being the only one of today) which should tell you alot on how I'm completely and utterly panicking. I didn't even go to the fair for lunch with my friend because I couldn't justify wasting the time. My friend and ex to the ex roomate W was in town, so I did take a break and ate dinner with him and another friend. I just kinda want these tests to be over with, so I can go ahead and start fresh and furious for next block. I guess it's good that I'm learning my lesson now instead of later. I also need to plan how I'm going to study for Step 1 that's happening in May. AND plan a trip to go shadow Dr. Pathologist over christmas break. Not forgetting the movie night my friend promised me once tests were over.
There's more on the karma front. Seems like Ms. Natural disaster has now taken leave. I'm assuming it's a year leave, since missing tests will not get you to next year on time. There seems to be some shady business going on, and the rumor mill has produced a story of almost a forced leave. It's good that she won't be with us anymore. She was not popular with many people as she always seemed to get out of tests and somehow always got her way with the administration. I too had a negative attitude, and if I would be on rotations with her next year, I'd have in the back of my head a question as to how she would be able to weasel her way out of her responsibilities this time. I'm seeing this as a positive thing for all people. I do wish her well, and I hope that nothing is seriously wrong. She can get everything she needs together and start again fresh. Now...if only I can get rid of Officer Helga (again, HIPAA approved name), I'd be set. I'm sure I'll talk more about her later, since she seems to piss me off on a semi-daily basis.
Wish me luck!
K
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