Speak Freely

As many of you have noticed, my blog had been on semi-lockdown due to a recent stink over blogs and being a "medical professional". With all of that I had to really sit down and think about whether to continue my blog or not. There is such a stink lately about medical, celebrity, and regular people and social networking sites. My personal opinion on all of this is that in a way, we are guaranteed freedom of speech and press. So really, we cannot be prosecuted over our opinions stated out loud or in print (by the federal government). Granted, privileged information such as patients names, conditions, etc should be protected. But what about our thoughts and opinions on subjects? Or our personal views on what is happening on a specific rotation? Why are we, as medical professionals, held to a standard where our thoughts and opinions must be censored because someone may get offended?

That must have been outlined in the fine print where I signed away my rights when I entered medical school.

So with that, I've decided to continue my blog. Granted, I have now prevented people from typing me into a search engine and finding me. I will say this: if you read my blog and get offended you have one of two choices:
1. come to me personally and explain why you are offended. I'm all about people voicing their opinions.
2. Stop reading. If you don't like what I say, don't come back. This is me exercising my right to have opinions and post them freely. I abide by HIPAA protocols and never reveal patient names or any other identifying information. Names have been changed to protect privacy and unless you were there or know specifically who people are, you don't know who I'm talking about. If you think I may be talking about you and you get offended, see choice #1. if that is not an option, then reference section 1 of choice #2 : STOP READING.

Ok, with all that now said, I will update the blogworld with my doings.

I finished anesleesia. It was definitely not my cup of tea. By the 3rd mock "mega code" I resorted to being sarcastic and caustic. It was ridiculous. I understand that there is a time and place for such codes, and it's great practice, but I will never run a code. And those who will may need this, oh, first week of intern year. Because none of us will remember the things outlined in the past 3 mega codes. Just my opinion.

Now on review of histology. Pretty great so far. I have some blackboard modules and access to a slide box and the histo lab. I also have 4 interviews this month so I'll be sure to keep up with all that. First one is next week on the 10th and I am scared! I'm sure I'll become more comfortable once I get one interview under my belt, but I'm so worried I'll screw it up. I've set my limit at 15 but I don't think I'll want to do that many.

Things with the boy are going well. He even came to the Halloween party (and for all you losers that didn't go, you missed out on meeting him!). So far everyone seems to like him which is good. He's definitely turning out to be a keeper! We really don't talk about the whole interview and match day thing, except for we'll just deal with whatever comes when it comes.

Hope everyone else in blog land is doing well! Adios for now.

Total Pain

On pain clinic this week. Ugh. I'm really glad my partner is a slacker like me, because we totally just disappeared at 11 this morning. Love it. Talked to some other fellow M4's that are just doing a pain month, and they told me to not even worry about showing up to morning rounds. No one will notice. Sweet! So I get to sleep in and just show up to 8 am clinic. Booya. However, the African attending offended me within 5 minutes (first he called me a pharmacy student, then when I said I was in med school and pharmaceutics wasn't my "area" he proceeded to tell a condescending story about Jonah and the Whale. He basically was like "you're immature not stepping up" and I'm like "I'M NOT A FUCKING PHARMACIST!"). However, his accent is awesome and I like hearing him talk. Totally not paying attention to what he says, but his accent is pretty awesome.

Ok, so I will say I'm trying really really really hard to get the boy out to meet everyone. Down sides include 1. He's in starkville working all week 2. he has 3 younger sisters he frequently takes care of 3. All of the above prevents us from having a lot of alone time so I tend to get selfish with him. I think I may attack him with a camera and post some pics so everyone can at least see what he looks like. We became official sometime last week? (yeah, that whole anniversary thing isn't happening from my end haha). He is super sweet to me, seems to like my feisty in-your-face personality, has the cutest smile and makes me laugh. Apparently I can't stop smiling whenever I'm talking or thinking about him. I'm completely smitten. Any more than that, you'll have to ask. I hate sitting and gushing because I could go on and on (and I'll do it).

Got a lot of my interviews booked. Still haven't heard from UMC. Really getting nervous. I'm sure they are just one of the many programs that send out invites later, but I won't feel better until I get my invite. I"m getting kinda nervous and almost like "ugh, I don't want to do this" but it has to be done. I'm glad everyone else is getting a bunch of interviews and I absolutely cannot WAIT until match day. Woo!

Time for bed, went running tonight and i am pooped!

Well FML

Day two of anesleesia. And it's torture. I'm at the hospital at about 0645, and today didn't leave until 5. It's like freaking surgery or medicine hours. And then I just stood there for 2 hours during an ortho case that used fluoro. So that meant lead vest. When I asked the surgeons if they were using a stool that was set off in the corner they said "yeah, maybe, if we do something with the leg later" so that meant "no, you can't have it". Luckily my resident wasn't all about students so I just bounced and took a 1 1/2 hour lunch. Ugh, this month is NOT going to be fun. Not wanting to intubate or anything. I want to get my 3 checkoffs done and call it a month. I'm starting to realized I should have done an ICU month. At least that way I could get home by 12 and not have stupid simulations, ACLS every time I turn around, and have to sit through resident lectures that I could care less about but still have to stay awake. Yeah, that glazed over look is me picturing myself on a beach in Fiji.

Got my first rejection today. At first I found it funny, but then I started freaking out because I still haven't gotten my UMC interview. Granted, one of the residents told me hers didn't come until later, but I'm still spazzing. Especially since I'm wanting to stay. What if UMC doesn't want me? Ugh, I need a hug.



Things with boy are still going well. Slowly introducing him to people. He's really cute (or at least I think so) and treats me better than I probably deserve. I'm pretty smitten.

Now with some pics of my cute nephew at his soccer game at which I got roasted. (he's the cute little blonde in the green)

Kicking the ball

Yeah, we may have to talk about how you can't use your hands in soccer

Trying to get the ball away from the team

Niece got bored and did head stands

 

 

And as always, KITTY ON TOP OF BOX TOWER