So, one of my very best friends from high school announced her preganancy over facebook today. Needless to say, I'm in shock/denial. I just don't feel like we're old enough to be married, let alone have kids! Although my good med school friend the Budding Neurosurgeon reminded me that at my age she was married with a 6 year old. But still, I'm not talking about her. I'm talking about ME. haha. I guess with me not having a taste of the "real world" and still spending most of my time rotting behind textbooks and basing my entire existence on grades, scores, and test blocks kinda puts me in a place where I haven't realized we've all grown up. I'm not dissing anyone who has kids or has gotten married, don't get me wrong. I think it's just more of a mental time lapse I have. I mean, I know if/when I have a child, I'll probably wait until I start showing or something because I'll be scared I'll get in trouble or something. All of my friends need to be on anti-baby duty until I've mentally and emotionally caught up with everyone.
And today, there was another ICM small group. This time, neurology. I think I've diagnosed myself with post traumatic stress disorder when it comes to anything resembling my neuroanatomy class from last year. I just keep seeing Dr. Satan's face whenever someone utters anything that has the words "neuro" in it. It's like I just shut down and my mind goes blank. I just want to run away. I don't think this is a normal response. I seriously think I was traumatized by that class. The longer I'm in med school, the more convinced I am that I need xanax, prozac, zoloft, etc. Take your pick on your favorite antidepressant and/or anti-anxiety medication regimen.
On a positive note, I'm going to see one of my good college friends this weekend. Since it's a long weekend I figured I could spare Friday thru Sunday and play catch up on Monday. I'll take my Step 1 book with me most likely because she's got to work some so I'll be left to my own devices. I'm actually ok with pharm right now, but it's micro. Those people seriously don't know when to quit. I study my clinical micro made ridiculously simple-I'm good. I study my BRS for microbiology-I got this! I study my Step 1 book-I got some memorizing to do, but I'm feeling good about this! I read through the power points-WHAT THE FUCK. This receptor on this virus attaches to this receptor on these 3 cells in the human body and then if this one amino acid is mutated blah blah blah. OMG! Are you fucking me? SERIOUSLY? So how come my TWO, count them TWO board books do not mention any of this shit that you obviously think is important to my career in medicine. The entire microbiology department seriously needs to suck my left nut because they are plain ridiculous and out of control. I'm so over classes and these PhD's that think they created medicine. UGH! I have to constantly tell myself that I have to deal with this for just 4 more months. I can't get to next year or even Step if I don't deal with their bullshit and pass the class. It's so hard to give a rat's ass right now. Seriously. I can't wait for my evaluations. I did the mid-term one for pharm and tore Dr. Rambles A Lot a new asshole. Not only did I mention that he sits in front of the class, talks for 50 minutes and manages to not say ONE THING, but his little write a Step 1 test question was complete shit and a waste of my time. But if he really wanted to keep the assignment, he may want to pull a newer article out of his ass than 1974. Because honestly, they have better things to treat arrhythmias with now than Adenosine.
ok, so that was a fun rant. Enjoy reading. Of course, I can't drop out of school to become a pirate wench if I don't practice my pirate mouth now. Plus, I only curse that much when I start thinking about the obscene caste system that exists at my medical school.
Until the next rant! Keep it real! Remember: Don't be a fool, stay in school! (chant that extra loud for me!)
OH! and Dr. Pathologist has a birthday tomorrow! At least, that's the date he gave me. so I'll be texting him tomorrow, since he sucks at email. haha. so everyone wish Dr. Pathologist a happy birthday!!!
1 comment:
Ba ha ha ha ha. I almost did a whole post on micro last night dedicated to one slide. It had to do with NK cells and receptors and molecules and cytokines and it generally just made me want to shoot myself. I have been on the "Intro to Virology" 237 slides of lecture for the last week - no kidding...
Good luck :) I am impressed that you've managed to read so much though. I am SLOW.
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