Let's Start Over

So, today is the first day of 2009. Pretty mundane for myself. I have been cleaning and doing about 4 weeks worth of laundry. I'm not finished yet, but productivity was haulted when my niece came over to visit. She'll be staying with us for the next day or so because my nephew is getting his tonsils and adenoids taken out. I'll be at the hospital at 6:30 to support my sister and IF the deadbeat ex shows up I'll serve as the "sit down and don't say an effing word" buffer. He knows better than to open his mouth around me, because unlike my sister I don't care if I piss him off. But my niece is staying so my sister can focus on my nephew in the first 24 hours after his surgery. So tomorrow after the hospital I'm taking her to the local natural science museum. There are big aquariums and a dinosaur display so I think she'll have a good time.

Other than that, I haven't made any new years resolutions because they are never followed through. I guess I just take each day as a battle. Med school is a battle in itself. Just the fact that I haven't been kicked out yet says a lot. But of course I'm going to try to do the whole eat better, get in better shape, yada yada. I'm also starting off the new year with my new name, so that's something that is already different for myself. I'm pretty excited, even though I know when I go back to school I'll have a lot of questions. I'm going to fight hard to find the appropriate words to say "it's none of your business". It's been suggested for me to say "personal issues" but at the same time, I really don't think I should have to explain myself. I'll just have to take a deep breath and count to ten. I need to practice being cordial before third year, because I know I'll need something to keep me from just wearing some people in my class down to little insignificant shadows of self confidence.

I also have started studying for step. I believe it's about 21 1/2 weeks until the fated test. I hope to get 250-300 hours in. I've already started reviewing here and there. I'm picking subjects I really enjoyed, and I'm saving things like biochem and cardiology for that month I get off to do nothing but study. I did embryology the other day, and today I've dabbled in some of the reproductive chapters. I need to get my books back from my M1, at least my developmental and gross stuff. I should probably call her soon after classes start up again and arrange to stop by and get my books. I do know that I'm not giving her anything next year, I've been very disappointed in my M1's attitude toward me.

And in ending, I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL! I wonder if anyone would notice if I just never showed up again.