LOL

Just because it made me laugh out loud. It also is so, SO true.

Everyone read this: Training Grounds:Balls

Enjoy the laughter!

So, Now We Will Meet

I start my M3 year tomorrow and I would like to state for the record that I am SCARED. I think I was excited up to the point of the 20,000 surgery dept emails followed by reading all pertinent syllabi which basically all read "here's the doctor's name, here's his/her pager, do it yourself and then log everything and tell us what you arranged for your rotation".

EEP!

Although, I'll have 2 days of orientation to fall back on. Maybe they'll give us a better sense of what is expected of us (such as call, when we show up, when we get holidays, etc) because I'm a little in the dark. Or maybe because I forgot to read syllabus #219 which would have outlined ALL of that. oy.

With that said, I had a fantastic time at the BEACH with some of the girls: Cupcake Queen, Aspiring Neurosurgeon, and Running Champ. I got my fill of ocean and beach for a while, although I never knew I'd enjoy the beach that much. Sure, I've gone to the coast here but it's not the same as going to Florida. I really do love the sun and sand and hopefully I'll be able to go back again soon.

Then I went to my friend's wedding reception in the Delta yesterday (they had a family only wedding in Jamaica and then came back for reception with everyone). Aside from minor drama it was a great time. The bride looked absolutely stunning in her dress and the groom was well...the groom. haha. they were both glowing and I had to physically stop myself from crying when they danced to "I walk the line" by Johnny Cash. You'd have to know the couple to understand what I'm talking about, but it's kinda been their theme song. It was just awesome and I will be remembering it for quite some time especially due to the 27 mosquito bites I have from my toes to my face. I somehow didn't think to bring bug spray to the shindig (Delta+summer=mosquitoes the size of birds. Ok, maybe not really, but they were EVERYWHERE). Classic.

Well, I will leave it at that. My short but fun filled and busy summer break has been the perfect introduction to my M3 year. And I even cleaned my room and bathroom! So without further ado, I will lay in bed and watch Jurassic Park and wait for the last load of laundry to finish drying.

Until Next time!

I'm a wimp

1/2 mile in 6 minutes. Walked the other 24 for a grand total of 30 minutes and 1.66 miles. 208 supposed calories burned.

I'm getting there. slowly.

Also, I need to go down to the scrub room and *try on* scrubs. Since I'm short and have a massive ass, I don't know if the mediums will fit or if I'll need a large. It'll all depend on the way they're cut. Also, why isn't petite an option? I'm going to have to be rolling my pants something major.

Oh, and guess who has spent the past 2 days cooking instead of studying path? Oh yeah, that would be me.

Boards smoards.

M3 and Counting

So after a FANTASTIC break filled with sleep, sloth, and a mini vacation to New Orleans complete with getting lost in the ghetto, I'm back to the daily grind.

So the first thing I learned bright and early on monday morning when I get in is my M3 rotation schedule. I was pleasantly surprised when I saw that I got one of my top 4 choices! I got into group 5, which starts off on surgery so I'm really excited. I originally signed up with the Cupcake Queen and Aspiring Neurosurgeon for Medicine first, but I really wanted surgery first and I'm stoked that the schedules turned out the way they did. Plus, the group of people that my group made of (complete with the ongoing swapping) includes some of the best people I could ever have picked to work with. So I think all in all, Group 5 will be kicking ass, taking names, and leaving all others in the dust. Haha. Well, maybe not exactly like that, but I think we have an awesome group of people and it's going to be lots of fun. I can't wait to get started. Now all I have to do is pass pesky little things like the rest of M2 year and STEP. Ugh, STEP. I am looking forward to that being over. Besides, having my friends in the medicine first, we'll still have the biggies at the same time and we can swap tips for the rotations since we're doing them at complete opposite times.

So I'll be making rice krispie treats for the Pediatric Interest Group bake sale all week. The proceeds go to the children's hospital so it's a good cause. Plus, it gives me an excuse to make goodies and eat whatever sticks to the spoon. haha (hence why I've been gymming a little longer than usual). I didn't think they would be as popular as they turned out to be. They were the first item to sell out! I'm just making the regular ones, opposed to the peanut butter laiden ones that didn't seem to sell as quickly. It's a lot faster and cheaper anyway. Even though I personally prefer the ones with peanut butter. So go buy some rice krispie treats!

I also single handedly booked a speaker, room, and set a date for the next (and last of the year) Pathology Interest Group meeting! I feel so grown up. I'm hoping I'll get to be president next year. I know I haven't made up my mind on what I wanted to do as far as specialties go, but path is definitely on the board. I'll just have to see what I enjoy and what I don't and then make up my mind then. I have a feeling I'll be one of those M4's that still doesn't know what they want to do when they grow up. I hope I can at least rule out a few things by next year (I'm thinking surgery...but who knows, I may end up LOVING it...shudder....).

Seeing how it's the last three weeks of lecture EVER, I've decided to actually kick it up and study. I mean, hardcore study. So far, so good. Made it to lecture and paid attention. I even took notes during lecture. I haven't done that since the first week of M1 year. I also got coffee and studied in the library this afternoon. I never do that. Usually I come home, nap until 6 ish, eat dinner, look over something, gym, then shower and bed. I have a new inspiration to make sure I pass M2 and Step...because if I don't, I'll miss out on Group 5!!!! haha. Did I mention I'm completely PUMPED about my M3 group????? haha.

Well, I better finish making my rice krispies before study and gym.

Type B=I Don't Give a Crap

This week has already been very busy. I've come to realize I'm in deep shit for pharm again and I'm so tired of classes it just about makes me want to 1. drink 2. vomit 3. find some xanax. Well, psychiatry has already driven me to 1 and most likely will progress to 3 and 2 very rapidly. Although I will give it to psych for pointing out to Officer Helga that she has schizotypal personality disorder. It was priceless how he came up to her during that ONE personality disorder, asked her name, then made sure she was taking notes and "make sure to write that down". Priceless.

Also, there has been some bickering over next year class schedules. We were supposed to get an email today telling us what groups and schedules we ended up with , and would be allowed to swap around and get our final schedules by next week. Well, we have tests next week, and some people brought up the concern about having to deal with all the swapping and such during test week. I guess I never thought about it, but I can see their point. Not only being all stressed out about tests but also stressed about not being in the group you want and having to swap and finding someone to swap, etc, etc. However, I was pretty excited about seeing what I got and who I ended up with. So I can see how others are angry that they decided last minute to go ahead and draw but not release the information for another 2 weeks.

Personally, since I can see both sides, I don't care. I guess that separates my personality from others in my class. I think I'm more Type B in my personality where the majority of the class is Type A. Not saying Type A is bad, but I tend to see myself being more "go with the flow" when compared to some of my colleagues. I would have dealt with it during test week, or if I felt like it was too much just keep the schedule, not swap, study for tests, and deal with my group and schedule next year without complaining. Since the decision has been made, then I'll just wait until they release the info, because there's nothing I can do to change it now. I just hate that several people I know are upset over the postponement, because that'll be stress and worry during test week for them anyway and doesn' t accomplish the original goal of not releasing schedules.

Oh, and as a save my ass from being chewed out...No, I didn't email anyone to complain. I was just going to deal with it during test week. Or like I said, if I felt like it was going to take too much of my time, deal with the schedule I ended up with and not participate in swapping.

I'm just ready to be an M3

Juggling Really Sharp Knives

Right now there's some Eastern European doctor lecturing about nephrology. I can't understand him and he talks about two shades over a whisper. So I'm doing my internetting.

So this weekend my USMLE world opened up. I was doing ok when I was picking the subjects I liked...embryology, histology, genetics. But when I went to the random questions from all subjects, then I started getting depressed. I guess I'm not that bad off considering I haven't looked at first year materials yet. Plus, I still have time.

I'm over psychiatry. Give me my 70 and fuck off. I don't care anymore. I'm also over test block, and I hate pharmacology with a passion. I'm tired of memorizing drugs. Prev med is ok and biostats is growing on me. I love pathology so it doesn't bother me much. I'm ready to be an M3. I'm tired of sitting and rotting behind a computer screen.

I'm anxious about 3rd year schedules. I really don't care about the order. I'll have to do it all eventually. I just hope hope hope I get in with a good group. I wrote down all the people I'd rather not have to deal with next year, and it came up to 20 people. Some were a total NO, others were a they're not so bad but I'd just rather not. So worst case scenerio, I get 14 of those 20 in a group. And I just have to swap. Or, best case, my praying will work out and I'll get in with a good group. Cross your fingers for wed!

My lent list is growing. I've decided to stop the dessert desserts. Like cookies, cake, ice cream...that stuff. I have a horrible sweet tooth and the past week that's all I've wanted. I really need to get a grip. So this will help with my self control. Even though I'm starting late, I don't think The Big Guy minds. haha.

Also, my running regimen is going well. I came down with a cold during my first official week, and took about 3 days off. So I just repeated the first week again. So I'm a week behind the estimated schedule, but I'm ok with that. I'll start my second week today and it looks tough. Even though, I'm really excited about being able to one day call myself a runner. I've always wanted to. I'm starting to just go for things I've always wanted instead of letting excuses and pre-conceived notions of myself stop me anymore.

I feel like I don't see anyone anymore. Between everything academically and now trying to fit in gym and running, I've become very selfish with my time. It's like with everything going on, I'm constantly juggling everything. Although, I like my me time. I miss my friends. I hope no one takes offense and realize that once step is over, and hopefully pass, the hospital may eat me but I should have weekends off. I keep trying to tell myself it'll get better. As of right now, it has. Oh well, long live the nerd hole!

Stronger

So this week just hasn't been the best for me. Especially today. You would think it would turn out to be a good one, since I got the day off by coincidence. So I woke up, had my coffee, turned in my psych quiz. Thus started the bad day. Let me preface this by saying I had put more than 4 hours into this quiz. QUIZ. Not test. Which, according to the course director or supreme hancho or whatever he wants to call himself, will look a lot like the quizzes. GREEEEEAAAAAT. I'm definitely going to fail psych. Not only have I put that much time into the quiz just to turn up a big fat "you suck", but left me neglecting my other courses. So I've had to do some pharm and path and biostats and prev med. Let's just say that I have NO IDEA what my prev med test will look like, and biostats is nothing but glorified algebra for the med student. I'm hoping to do well on path and pharm, but we'll see. I just can't do the rest of my work because psych has just been piling up these quizzes. Not to mention this past one has been the worst yet. There's always the retake, right?

My friend actually went to Momma Medschool and vented about psych. They said that they've been getting complaints. She said that someone else was also in the office, and was going to email the Dean to see if they can't put a leash on psych. From what I heard, if enough people email complaints, they may be able to fix the ridiculousness that has become our psychiatry class. So I may go in monday and voice a concern about the upcoming test. Because if I spend 4-6 hours on a quiz, open book, and still can't make above an 80, I'm scared.

Another thing that has been causing me great anxiety is 3rd year schedules. Granted, I think I have been so lucky to end up in the class of 2011. The class above us is full of freaks and cuthroat gunners, while the class below us is full of overanxious, overachieving puppies. Our class isn't without its freaks, don't get me wrong. However, I feel like with the exception of a handful of people, I could work and pretty much professionally get along with almost everyone. Sure, there are the few that I'll dread getting on the same schedule, especially Officer Helga. I think she's the one person in the entire class that NO ONE wants to be on rotations with. Especially since she's already corrected a resident as a second year student. As much as I would love to personally be on rotations with her just to personally see her get verbally cornholed by a resident, I'd much rather just avoid the entire experience. Even though the first or the 300th time would be just as entertaining. I'm sure it won't get old and will be like some type of consolation prize for being stuck with her on rounds. I'll just have to see how it all plays out. I turned in my schedule and I just hope for the best. And even if I do end up with her, Momma Medschool has assured me that 1. you'll get the chance to work with others 2. a person's behavior will not affect your grade if you make sure you make a good impression and go out of your way to show them you're not associated with the bum partner and 3. there's always xanax. haha. no, I just added in #3. But it's still true. I just really hope I get in a good group, and I'm sure with such a great class overall I'm bound to have a good experience.

What does not kill us only makes us stronger.

Also, the korean/asian store didn't have Kimchee. I made a special trip out there JUST for kimchee. Supposedly there's going to be fresh kimchee tomorrow, so I'll just have to make another trip out. Also, I had a 2 liter of sprite explode in my car, now causing me to need a serious shampooing of my carpet in the back. At least it didn't stain, but that just didn't help with the disgruntledness I feel with everything that's just gone wrong.

So the rest of the weekend, i'll be catching up with biostats and pharm hopefully. I've successfully completed my laundry. I need to clean but that's iffy. I'm just hoping the crapfest that has been the past week or so will resolve and I'll take the test block going smoothly.

On a better note, I hope it rains tonight (after I get back from the gym!!!!) so I can sleep and watch movies in bed. I like stormy weather.