Total Pain

On pain clinic this week. Ugh. I'm really glad my partner is a slacker like me, because we totally just disappeared at 11 this morning. Love it. Talked to some other fellow M4's that are just doing a pain month, and they told me to not even worry about showing up to morning rounds. No one will notice. Sweet! So I get to sleep in and just show up to 8 am clinic. Booya. However, the African attending offended me within 5 minutes (first he called me a pharmacy student, then when I said I was in med school and pharmaceutics wasn't my "area" he proceeded to tell a condescending story about Jonah and the Whale. He basically was like "you're immature not stepping up" and I'm like "I'M NOT A FUCKING PHARMACIST!"). However, his accent is awesome and I like hearing him talk. Totally not paying attention to what he says, but his accent is pretty awesome.

Ok, so I will say I'm trying really really really hard to get the boy out to meet everyone. Down sides include 1. He's in starkville working all week 2. he has 3 younger sisters he frequently takes care of 3. All of the above prevents us from having a lot of alone time so I tend to get selfish with him. I think I may attack him with a camera and post some pics so everyone can at least see what he looks like. We became official sometime last week? (yeah, that whole anniversary thing isn't happening from my end haha). He is super sweet to me, seems to like my feisty in-your-face personality, has the cutest smile and makes me laugh. Apparently I can't stop smiling whenever I'm talking or thinking about him. I'm completely smitten. Any more than that, you'll have to ask. I hate sitting and gushing because I could go on and on (and I'll do it).

Got a lot of my interviews booked. Still haven't heard from UMC. Really getting nervous. I'm sure they are just one of the many programs that send out invites later, but I won't feel better until I get my invite. I"m getting kinda nervous and almost like "ugh, I don't want to do this" but it has to be done. I'm glad everyone else is getting a bunch of interviews and I absolutely cannot WAIT until match day. Woo!

Time for bed, went running tonight and i am pooped!

Well FML

Day two of anesleesia. And it's torture. I'm at the hospital at about 0645, and today didn't leave until 5. It's like freaking surgery or medicine hours. And then I just stood there for 2 hours during an ortho case that used fluoro. So that meant lead vest. When I asked the surgeons if they were using a stool that was set off in the corner they said "yeah, maybe, if we do something with the leg later" so that meant "no, you can't have it". Luckily my resident wasn't all about students so I just bounced and took a 1 1/2 hour lunch. Ugh, this month is NOT going to be fun. Not wanting to intubate or anything. I want to get my 3 checkoffs done and call it a month. I'm starting to realized I should have done an ICU month. At least that way I could get home by 12 and not have stupid simulations, ACLS every time I turn around, and have to sit through resident lectures that I could care less about but still have to stay awake. Yeah, that glazed over look is me picturing myself on a beach in Fiji.

Got my first rejection today. At first I found it funny, but then I started freaking out because I still haven't gotten my UMC interview. Granted, one of the residents told me hers didn't come until later, but I'm still spazzing. Especially since I'm wanting to stay. What if UMC doesn't want me? Ugh, I need a hug.



Things with boy are still going well. Slowly introducing him to people. He's really cute (or at least I think so) and treats me better than I probably deserve. I'm pretty smitten.

Now with some pics of my cute nephew at his soccer game at which I got roasted. (he's the cute little blonde in the green)

Kicking the ball

Yeah, we may have to talk about how you can't use your hands in soccer

Trying to get the ball away from the team

Niece got bored and did head stands

 

 

And as always, KITTY ON TOP OF BOX TOWER

Free Friday

I feel like I'm playing hookie today. The anesthesia dept didn't want to start up their rotation on a friday I suppose, so Monday is orientation. I'm not looking forward to doing a month of something I have no interest in (especially since it'll mean early mornings) but I suppose anything is better than having to do surgery. Plus I know I'll get all my sign offs done, so that's good.

Things with boy are so far so good. Slowly introducing him to people. Still think we're in that "hang out and talk" mode. I'm trying to let go and enjoy instead of freaking out about impending Match Day and all that it entails.

All is well on the application front. Hopefully I'll just get to stay at UMC but we'll see. I'm going to try to do things in the cities I visit so there may be an interview trail picture post when the time comes.

Oh, and I'm also trying to decide what to dress up as for halloween. Unfortunately growing up halloween was "go dig through your closet and come up with something creative. I'm not buying you a costume" so I've never really gotten into the spirit. So maybe this year I'll actually go buy something. I'm going to try to tag along with the niece and nephew while they trick or treat (omg the cutest things you've ever seen kids do) and then maybe the halloween party at H&M's or out with friends? I dunno. we'll see.

Wha Whaaa!

Micro for the rest of the month. Got to say it hasn't been my favorite. Which is ok, gotta have that one thing you don't absolutely love, don't you? But everyone is nice, and the lab is stinky. I feel like I need a decontamination shower after being back there.

Got more interviews. I'm thinking about not accepting one. Even the email was super high strung and listed out things I needed to include in my email, as well as the fact that the Residency Director or Chair will be personally calling me to find out what my research and career interests are so I can get set up with the correct people or something like that. Yeah, I don't think so. Kinda scary.

Tonight will comprise of chocolate cake baking for a friend's birthday, and going over and over my presentation. I'm house sitting again this weekend, and I'm hoping I may convince boy to come and watch movie again with me. Yes, it's just an excuse to cuddle, but he's really cute. I'm trying really hard this time to not come on strong (we kinda dated-ish in the past. it was my idea and I feel that this time it needs to be on his terms). Yeah, really cute.

Not looking forward to anesthesia next month. Oh well, gotta do what we gots to do.

Smitten

Hematopathology this week. Been working with one of the docs I asked for a rec letter. Hopefully I've stepped up my game and I'll get a good one. I'm even doing a presentation at end of the month conference on Hemoglobin SC disease (two letters, you'd appreciate this one!). I'm kinda pumped, and trying REALLY hard to make sure I don't have a really long talk. I want to go into sickle cell and just plain hemoglobin C disease, but that can't happen. They told me to keep it under 10 min. I think I can do that if I talk fast (which I usually do when I'm nervous). Right now it's looking like about 10-15 slides so I should make it. I believe I'm completely smitten with this idea of being a pathology professor one day. I've really enjoyed coming up with a presentation.

So I'm absolutely loving CP. Have I mentioned that lately? haha. Oh, and the interview invites have started, mainly with a lot of the East Coast programs (which is what I was told to suspect according to SDN) and a select few southern programs have sent me the email "we're reviewing your application and you should heard from us starting by this date". So it's exciting! Hopefully I'll have a job in path by March 17th!

I believe that I shall be jinxing myself, but you know how the minute you swear off guys, and plan to be single then start looking after "residency settles in a routine", is the minute you find someone?

Yeah, guess who that happened to.

But that's all I'm saying about that.

Off to look up some numbers and google photos for my presentation.

Coagulation/Chemistry has been what's up this week. It hasn't been bad, but not the most hoppin' service either. Mainly just wait around for consults. Plus, the dept is getting accredited this month, so everyone is in a tizzy to do all their paperwork and to makes sure everything is up to snuff.

Coag is the other part of path (besides cytopath) that has patient interaction. I went on 2 consults. One was straight forward, the other was a bit more complicated. For some reason the pt really liked to talk to me. Lucky me. I know his head hurt, and it's frustrating when nothing takes away the pain, but 1. I can't do anything for that, especially write for any painkillers seeing how I'm still a student 2. when you describe the pain occuring/worsening when looking INTO THE SUN, here's a novel idea: don't do that. ugh. he was nice tho, and I hope all goes well with him.

I got my application turned in (woo!) and even got an interview request (double woot!). So I'm pretty pumped. I spent all day yesterday suit shopping and may have even found one. I also had to order some nice and unfortunately very expensive shoes. They are much needed, but still. I never thought I'd pay that much for shoes. Since I have such small messed up hobbit feet, they had to special order me a small size. Yeah, i hate my feet.

I'm also out of the house for a while (yay!) as I house sit for my friend. Her dog is strange as it's petrified of people, but then will randomly come up to me and lick my feet/calves/hand. But don't you dare try to pet him! It's like you came at him with a baseball bat. Silly dog, he's a rescue so I dunno guess he had some traumatizing events as a young one.

This weekend has been fun. Random thing: Friday during lunch I thought I saw one of my old friends at the U (most random place EVER for him to be btw). Eventually we recognized each other. We even hung out Fri night and I saw another old friend as well. It was SO nice catching up with both of them. One just moved back to town, the other has been around and finally got a job he enjoys. We went out on a boat and spent a bunch of time catching up and just having fun. I always forget how much I miss people until I actually get to see them. It's so easy for me to get lost in school, responsibilities, and everything else that I just so easily lose touch with people. It's never on purpose, just happens when I get so focused on one thing (mainly my career) that unfortunately people just get lost in the wake. But I'm so happy I got to catch up and see them. I'll have to make it a point to make sure I keep my end up and stay in touch. I love both of those guys so much! It was definitely the highlight of my week (maybe a tie with my interview invitation).

So with that I'm going to hang out, perhaps watch another movie (genius here watched 2 scary movies then realized I'm in a house, by myself, with a dog that refuses to get in the bed with me and make me feel safe. I either 1. need to find a guy friend that's not opposed to coming and cuddling with me under such circumstances or 2. Steal Red or Blue from my fellow pathfriend.

Oh, and Two Letter: I WANT TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR HOT DATE! :)

Done!

30 programs and lots of money later, I am officially a AP/CP pathology categorical applicant!

Wish me luck. I'm going to go and find somewhere to vomit.